The man was
average height. He was thin and his veins stood out when his muscles flexed. He
had a dark canvas bag slung over one shoulder. He looked anxious. He leaned
forward and craned his neck to the left to look for the train. Nothing. His
neck returned to normal but the tips of his toes remained over the edge. He
bounced in place, jiggled his hands, glanced at his watch. His hand reached
into the bag but then drew out at an alarming speed. Perhaps there was a snake
in there. The thought made her smile. She watched the man and felt her own
blood stir, her own feet tap, her own hands dance. She watched the man fiddle
with his glasses, sigh and once again crane his neck. The tops of his flat,
brown shoes inched further and further off the edge. She smiled again,
understanding his impatience. She turned away and reached in her own bag
cautiously. She heard a cry and whipped her head around just in time to see the
man cascade forwards into the pits of the train track. Her eyes danced rapidly
until they could focus on the man. His face was cut and bleeding from the rough
edge of the track, his arm twisted awkwardly. He stood up in pain and people on
the platform gathered around him, watching him struggle. She felt connected
with him, somehow and ambivalently stepped forward to help. His eyes pleaded
for assistance. Nervous about extending her hand, she paused. A strong hand
from amongst the crowd plunged forward, relieving her. He twisted against the
pull of the hand in every direction, a puppet dancing, struggling for a grip on
anything he could use to move upward. Suddenly the man was bathed in a bright
yellow light, an un-natural sun. A rumbling of noise pressed against her ears.
She craned her neck and terror closed her throat. The man’s face turned a ghastly
white and he began to scramble with the strong hand with all his might. He
pulled with such force the hand was frightened and yanked away. She felt her
heart beat out of her chest and a scream bubble towards her mouth. His face was
a mirror image. As if in slow motion, she watched the man lower himself to the
litter beneath him and flatten himself against the track. The crowd watched in
silence as the train ran through the track, on top of the miserable man
underneath. It screeched to a stop, completely unaware of the body beneath it.
A few passengers boarded the train. She watched in horror, unable to move. Her
brain was frozen, her legs, without direction, rooted to the ground beneath
them. Her fist was white, squeezing her bag as hard as she could, as if the
pressure she applied to the bag could take away from the pressure the train
applied to the man. She shook with miserable anticipation as the train
departed. She had done nothing. She wasn’t sure she wanted to know what had
happened to the man, wasn’t sure that she deserved to know. She quickly turned
away and ran out of the station, forgetting about where she had to go. As she
walked up the stairs she heard a faint gasp from below. A chill ran through her
as she left without turning back.