good sleep will never come

people are too insane to get close to

i get ahead of myself cause I'm too goddamn slow
i get lost in the blur of the undertow
everyone so busy with their empty lives
filling in the holes, buying dirt
to try to reinforce the lie
no debts are payed, no stones unturned
loneliness is all i've ever learned
theres blood in the water so buy it in bottles
drink till your drown or the plastic causes cancer

you haven't earned a death

you can only dig the dirt so many times
you have to stop and realize
you have only been living a lie
theres nothing but poison in the air you breathe
the flies have it better than you or me

the light pours out of me but its not for you
i will squander it all just to spite you
i will burn every dollar, misuse every gift
to prove that its my choice, what i do in the end
if it doesn't mean something to me, then its wrong
if it doesn't have life then its hollow and sad
you're only as good as the drugs that you take
you're your own worst critic, you know when its fake

there isn't a place for the people like you
the boring are legion, they got numbers on you
you'll pull at your skin and punch at your legs
you'll give anything to feel a little less dead
good sleep will never come
you'll wake up feeling lost
buy earphones and wear them in public
to drown out all the noise