sleepless sad

2:30 in the morning
and then 7 am and the sun is coming up
there is nothing like the feeling of a failure
as another night is spent sleepless

can't even get natural bodily functions right
can't ever seem to get black enough blankets
to put in the windows

its a lonely, cold feeling
seeing that blue of day poke through the fabric
another brittle morning
and the anxiety kicks into fourth gear
insomnia only exasperated by the fear
of another work day without sleep
the vicious cycle of life in the gutter

nothing but time to sit there
feeling all the sad crawl down the walls
cause it realizes you have no defenses,
no distractions, no where to go, too tired to move

hell is a bed you can't get comfortable in
so many pills to knock yourself out
but hypnotics are not the same as sleep
and the pills don't even work anymore

a sunrise is the saddest thing
its just another reminder
of the normal things that everyone has
and i always lack
always alone and lonely
in a world full of people

Reviews

[Missie Moon]

I think you captured the stressful feeling of being awake when it starts to become light outside and you have to be at work in a few hours perfectly. I really like "a sunrise is the saddest thing." It's a switch from how a sunrise is usually used to describe a new beginning or a feeling of potential. Very nicely put.