a stray piece of trash from gods garbage can

No one talks about forever
In reference to the damage done
It's always about love
Or beautiful fantasies
Never about the things we've done
To each other
But that's the only forever that really exists
The damage done is permanent
You might dull the ache over time
You might brush it off as "it was a long time ago"
But it will never go away
The scars remain no matter how much they fade
On sensitive days
When you want to hurt yourself
You'll remember the incident
Your scars will itch
And the bitter memory will surface
Of the way two people tried to destroy each other
Two people who swore that they loved each other
It makes you realize the truth about love
That it's only a biological construct
A chemical reaction to induce procreation
Your own biology cheating you
Into believing that anything is a choice
And free will is real

No one forgives in ways that matter
It's just something they tell other people
So they sound stronger
People confuse their emotions
And the way their bodies react
They cannot separate themselves
From their feelings
And someone always gets destroyed

The damage eventually shows up
In the wrinkles in your face
In every grey hair that forces it's way through
In every involuntary twitch in the corners of your mouth
The pain gets duller
Like a bad knee that you've always just dealt with
But it's not gone. It's very much there
Constant reminders and broken dreams
This reality is such a joke
That becoming untethered from it
Seems like the best option
So when it's your time to go
Go out with a bang
And leave them devastated
Cause they sure wanted to be the ones doing the devastating
All of them do
Whether they admit it or not

Reviews

[. serah .]

-- i had these thoughts when i mistook highly skilled and deceptive subliminal manipulation for love... but i couldn't describe them as brilliantly as you do... -- you have a gift for writing extremely vivid images...

[Jay Bailey]

cut to the bone or get out of the way. i have no time for anything else.

[. serah .]

-- are you saying this to me, monsieur or is this your general feeling towards all human interactions...? -- if it is your general feeling towards all human interactions, then perhaps you haven't met experts in psychological manipulation...

[Jay Bailey]

im referring to my "writing extremely vivid images". i tend to not mince words. i prefer to be direct. nothing against you.

[Jay Bailey]

and yes i have definitely met psychological manipulators. b******s, all of them.

[. serah .]

-- oh... got it... -- english is not my first language so i get confused sometimes... :p

[. serah .]

-- i feel they are deranged as opposed to evil... i think they are mentally ill... unlike sane and rational people... (am referring to manipulators)

[Jay Bailey]

thats ok. i understand. english is an odd language. my apologies if i go too fast.

manipulators are definitely ill. i've gotten very good at spotting them before hand though.

[. serah .]

-- no worries... if i get confused, i'll ask you to help me understand what you mean... i love the english language and would love to be proficient in it...

-- i'm still learning how to spot them (manipulators)... but i hope i don't take forever to learn else i won't be able to protect myself... -- i failed miserably in the very recent past...

[Jay Bailey]

you have to go through it a few times in order to be able to spot them, unfortunately.

read moreyou have to go through it a few times in order to be able to spot them, unfortunately.

you're english is actually really good. unfortunately my country is lazy and ignorant when it comes to other languages so we aren't pressed to learn others. i hope to someday learn. i feel like its necessary to strive to be better.

[. serah .]

-- your reply didn't get posted on this page but i can read this much on my homepage...

read more-- your reply didn't get posted on this page but i can read this much on my homepage...

"you have to go through it a few times in order to be able to spot them, unfortunately. you're english is actually really good. unfortunately my country is lazy and ignorant when it comes to other languages so we aren't pressed to learn others."

-- thank you for the compliment... -- india was colonised by the british for many years and that's why we have sort of inherited some aspects of the british education system...

-- i hear you... about learning how to spot manipulators... -- my nasty experience with one which led to me being out of social circulation completely was so horrifying that i have become super cautious... and i'm still in the process of rehabilitating myself...

[. serah .]

-- your reply didn't get posted on this page but i can read this much on my homepage...

read more-- your reply didn't get posted on this page but i can read this much on my homepage...

"you have to go through it a few times in order to be able to spot them, unfortunately. you're english is actually really good. unfortunately my country is lazy and ignorant when it comes to other languages so we aren't pressed to learn others."

-- thank you for the compliment... -- india was colonised by the british for many years and that's why we have sort of inherited some aspects of the british education system...

-- i hear you... about learning how to spot manipulators... -- my nasty experience with one which led to me being out of social circulation completely was so horrifying that i have become super cautious... and i'm still in the process of rehabilitating myself...

[Jay Bailey]

yea, this thing is screwing up.

[. serah .]

-- i know... it's a bug... -- i've mailed you my reply...