01 Insufferable

Ending life it seem to be the easy way out

“You only see light when its burning low, Only miss the sun when it starts to snow, only know you love her when you let her go” 

what if I always know the light is there, I hate the sun even when it start to snow, I know I treasure and i can’t let it go..

Friends, the definition of a friend is never been this concept. 

This friend, he who cares about you, worry for you, cried for you when he is know what you re going through. 

This friend, he the one would pour his heat out to you with no inhibition. The one amid the chaos would rummage and find the time of day, no matter how small or fleeting. 

Amid the chaos would drop everything for you. 

He who understand your fears as much as they have their own and fear them with you. 

Full of flaws yet accepting your own. 

This friend, he the one to tell you have Faith, that true friends are not easily lost. 

Understanding, Care, Thought, Love, Truth, Worry, Companionship, will always be there. 

This friend, he the one to tell you to Believe, the ones that stick by you through explosions, tempers, emotions high and low. Reach the understanding and grow. True friendship last years and more through trials whether distance or time separates. 

Call upon a friend in and be there for a friend. Rewards of Friendship far surpass any material blessing. 

This friend, he the one who turn to a lone flower, who seem can never be considered beautiful. the same way a thought and feeling not empowered can never be appreciated. 

This friend, he the one who became despair, asking other than all the negative, is there anything left that he is actually good at. 

What is a friend? how close should a friend be? are we counted as a friend or more than that? but we don have the romance sparks in both of us. we just really care for each other, and depend on each other knowing there’s someone there for you always. 

This friend, he who stop feeling anymore. Tears fall, quarrels outbreak, regardless how many help I shouted, he is no longer there. 

I have lost him. I mourned for him.

Its insufferable, and finally, “It is advisable that you seek for therapists” appear in my tests. 

I want to shout out to him, and to tell him I am not well. But he is not there anymore.