I Love You, Mom

I Love You, Mom

 

A small town hospital delivers her healthy baby boy

With big blue eyes, double chins and cries sweet, soft, and coy.

A happy child that shortly holds his brother in each little arm

 An instant love and unspoken promise to deter any harm.

 

A repetitive sexual abuse he just could not have known

At five years of age from a trusted cousin, fingered and blown

And Mommy and Daddy shouldn't know or he got in deep trouble

But enraged when victims of offense were in numbers double.

 

A deep failure in duty from a whelp of a big brother

Self punish with face bloodied and bruised brings tears of his mother.

A nonstop battle with self-mutilation and hate rages

As he recluses into darkness with suicide's stages.

 

Melancholy dissipates and mania surfaces in

No time to sleep for a genius with fixation to win

Reckless sex impregnates his girlfriend at the age of sixteen

Though her distaste for fat miscarries before his child is seen

 

He recluses away with his new best friend Samuel Adams

Cigarette burned thighs and razor blade scarred arms, wrist, and hands

He staggers drunk into his white truck and drives to the gun store

When he arrives the owner holds him in and locks the front door.

 

A week spent within behavioral rehabilitation

With Lithium and Seroquel giving emancipation

Now he writes poem at his desk thinking of his little brother

And he reflects back and he calls his mother to say he loves her.

Reviews

[lily]

This is such an amazing heart felt poem.
I love it :)
well done!

[Kenneth Stephen Goodpaster]

Just got off the phone with my mom. I just finished that poem.