questions

How did I end up like this

How did this become me
What was it I said or did
How come you couldn't see

I was lost inside myself
No way out from this hell
I was made to do time
And this room became a sell

Solitude turned to loneliness
I just wanted a friend to hear
But I was all alone in this
Depression became fear

It was too dangerous to feel
It was a risk I couldn't take
So I made myself so numb
In the hope I wouldn't break

I lost all enjoyment in my life
I couldn't be happy anymore
I tried hard to talk about it
But at me they would claw

So I kept it all inside myself
And it just made my mind sick
People tried their best to use me
So I made a wall of stone and brick

No-one tried to save me
Years past me on by
I tried hard to carry on
But I was living in a lie

I would think of suicide
I would think of self-harm
I was desperate now
I had to feel calm

But everything was just the same
Relief is a momentary way to cope
I wanted more than this for myself
I wanted to give myself hope

Only my head is filled with questions
There are things I have to know
I need all these answers
Before I can go

How did I end up like this
How did this become me
What was it I said or did
How come you couldn't see
I have to know what became of me 

Reviews

[Floydina White]

Wow, I love this! The reads more like a song than a straight poem... but then, aren't songs just glorified poems with bridges and choruses anyway?? Haha. Good job :)

[Sun Dog]

Well as bleak as this is you certainly expressed it very well!

[The Rock And Roll Cowbo..]

Depression strikes people without word or warning, without rhyme or reason... a very dark but so realictic look into the mind of depression.