only sis

 When pens bleed words on paper

It opens up your soul
Always searching deeper
Not knowing where to go

Almost like a Tulip
That opens when its worm
Happy things bloom just like that
In most comfortable form

But when youre feeling miserable
The words just seem to pour
Like opening of a wound 
Full of blood and gore

Its the most overwhelming feeling
It sours past hope and love
Conquering your mindset
The black of the midnight dove

Although you hate to be sad
Its presence will soon fade
For its stay is only long enough
To make you feel ashamed

The feeling is an addiction
For you hide your sad face
You need its strong effects
To keep your tears in place

The urge for death comes after
So long since youve felt pain
Sadness left you numb with time
Theres nothing else to gain

Periodically you feel the prick
Of the blade against your skin
But nothing more can hurt you now
Only silence is left within

But somehow you just keep on going
Day after day after day
Because someone out there still loves you
No matter what you say

And here is kept the bandages
For your wrists full of slits
And no one else but me
to help, I your only sis

Author's Note

please let me know what u think?

Reviews

[Dani California]

That last stanza was painful and dark. The entire piece was dark... but toward the end I saw that little gleam of hope.. that dim light off in the distance whispering ... "don't give up yet. Not yet.." ... and as it moves closer to you its whispers turn to yells .... don't give up... "not ever!".

You've expressed the effects of disappointment and heartbreak well, and how it can lead to an overall feeling of hopelessness. But, I don't believe lack of emotion exists, for if that were true, the author could not have written this. ;)

Nice flow, and nice pull at the emotions... great job!!

[Morgan A Lynch]

i belive i had read this atleast 20 times or more befor i am leaving this comment..

i think it has been hard for me b/c this one is about me..

thank you for writing this and letting me know you will always be there to help cover the wounds that i put on my self.

on the post below me from dani.. i dont think this is about disappointment it is more heartbreak b/c she knows she can not make it better. she knows that the person is forever in this place of darkness and nothing and all she does is try and bring them back even if it is for one sec at a time.

[Wildecat]

This really tugged at my heart strings. I have talked to so many young people who wanted to commit suicide. And had a real close friend who finally did. It is nice that you are there for her. Well done.

[The Rock And Roll Cowbo..]

very compassionate write... knowing your sister like i do it does sadden me to think she maybe in such a dark place but I am glad she has a sister like you to show her the light.

[These Haunted Hallways]

Omg, this was so deep and heartbreaking. Just tore me apart :( Beautifully written tho. Some of the time (most of the time, for me) our pens and papers are the only friends we have when times are bad and when we are losing battles. They help us cope with things unimaginable, and is a way out when we do write it all down to express what we feel inside. Without this cure, it definitely would be ten times as worse than what it is. And letting other people know by telling our words to them; they calm us by love and comfort, and tell us that we are not alone in this world with this kind of pain. Awesome poem. I love reading ur words! Great job :)

B.A.

[Kena Dawn Augustine]

intense, dramatic, but well written. very strong piece, it shows your talent.

thanks for sharing.

kena