confusion

It doesn't matter what I think
It doesn't matter what i say

no matter how much is done
it will always end up your way

Never remembering the good things
your memory grips onto the bad

often wondering  what changed you
I miss the man that once was had

So scared of losing you
yet not afraid to let you go
I ask myself if we'll make it
the answer is only you will know.


I'm sorry you think im  a f-ck up
u only hear what u wanna hear
sorry if you think im such a b-tch
but this is me
...am i the type of girl that you fear?

I cant make you want me

Because every time we fight 

and still cant make you see 
our past situations surface to the light

I'm expected to forgive and forget
"I'm sorry " is supposed to take it all away
wipe my tears and make it all OK

but it doesnt it only gets worse

 

when i f-ck-up its the opposite
the grudge you hold onto it tight
and only forgiven until your irritated
or the next fight

I'm so lost in confusion
I don't know whats best to do
my heart says stay
and my brain says its time to let go

 

 

Reviews

[The Rock And Roll Cowbo..]

Very emotional poem... sometimes relationship are hard no matter how much we love each other and when things get a bit rocky we must decide if it's worth fighting for or moving on, and if one doesn't want to stay the fight is over... heartbreaking but very well written.

[Michael V]

Very Good Job, you could lose a little bit of the I's or the's but well done.

[Nick Erickson]

You've done an excellent job of putting your feelings of confusion, misery and sorrow onto paper.
Your feelings are vivid and true.
"Run, run, run so far away..." is a few words from an old song from the 80's, a song that ran through my head while reading.
Well done!!!