My Thoughts Pt2

 

Last week i found myself listening to my radio
and i heard the melody of Chrisette Michelle crossed with mix of Jill scott , India arie and Raheem deVaughn..
and as layed their in their in my room in the middle of my bed with all those rhythms flowing thru my head
All i ever see is the movie to a soundtrack of a sad love song
and in my world there are no emotions and all feeling is gone
I wondered if the love they knew even existed
Or was it some made up fairy tale that jus kept ppl like me "Hopeful" lol i mean stable
Amd makes u relax as they tell u this old myth or fable
I thought Could i ever have my way ?
Take that long walk and knew exactly jus what 2 say
Still i was there curious 2 know If iwould ever see that Brown skin or run into that Beautiful surprisew/o having 2 do it a million tries
I jus layed their and imagined what the possiblity was of a man serving me up Like his Customer
The question still palgued my mind
i constantly hear all those happy couples saying it will come in time
.once again here i am trying to find rhyme for this sad a*s line
So i took the time, read all the books , focused on the things that were already mine
it sounds so crazy
and its so damn shady
As if cupid is being so freaking lazy
atleast when it comes 2 me
I jus cant seem to understand or see
Cupids obsession and why he cant jus let me be
These thoughts consume me as my music plays in the background
Amy's Back 2 Black added 2 the soundtrack of my life
and i listened to etta james soothe me with All I could do is cry
Lauryn told me how 2 find Peace of mind
as floetry showed me how to Fantasize
then short after Colibie Caillat made feel Bubbly
Erykah Badu made me Call Tyrone
Which led me to Think about it and Where I wana be with Donell jones
And this all brings To Vivan Greene and has me asking WHAT IS LOVE