Him ......(Its Nothing right ....?)

It was around 130 am wen i realized i was falling 4 you
Layed back staring at the phone wondering what i should do
Thinking i should tell you and if so what happens next .....
So confused i dont think im ready for this yet
Dont Wanna have my heart broken and mind filled with regret
Where did this feeling come from? is the question i constantly ask myself
Am i sure this is What I want ? What u want ? Could this Be ?
Thought last time was in fact the last time
Told myself i would NEVER Think about being in this place again
But for some reason the thoughts never leaves my brain
I spent the whole night fighting with only me
Closed my eyes trying 2 escape this reality
But My mind only showed images of what we could be
I Know what you're thinking......
She's trippin right.....
But ask yourself have u ever experienced one of those nights
Its really late and no1 is up but you
He's the only thing that crosses your mind
as if the thoughts slow down time
And your're tired of Looking at out your window Because all you do is fantasize
I spent the whole night daydreaming about it
And the whole day having night-like dreams
My mind is all clouded and im not thinking str8 at least thats how it seems
Simply Living but dying 4 that touch Soft spoken but never overshadowing the way my heart screams
You see i dont think you will ever understand
The power held over a woman contained in one single man
I still remember that first nite
He smiled then i smiled
He parted his lips and made me melt down to my hips
I got it on repeat in the back of my head
His kisses are better than chocolate with a cherry on top
I dont think you comprehend this man i got
Its like he compliments me
And makes me wana be a better me
and when we disagree
I make myself listen and respect it i dont even wana make a plea
Closed mouth ears wide as if i was guilty
I dont have an urge 2 verbally crucify him
I cant let myself deny him
Dont wana ever say bye 2 him
When he calls i begin 2 stutter
and cant find the right words 2 utter
I can see him as my king
and me as his queen up his throne
I wana be his supporter
And We're in the Kings quarters i wanna be the one 2 follow all of his orders
This man simply moves me
And i dont he knows it He makes me feel like im the lock and he is the key
Wait wait Hold on
What if im moving to fast
Im not thinking logically am i sure this could last
What if i let all these emotions go and they crash
Into a brick wall of" i told you so's" spoken by my friends
And I dont even know if he does or could ever feel the same
6months from now i dont wanna be giving the blame
and find out the time that was spent was just a game
It was a round two when i realized that this could be true
and around 230 When i thought i should think this through
At 330 i realized that we havent even been doing this long
at 430 i couldnt stop staring at the phone
and finally by 530 i was ready to close my eyes
and fell asleep with a stomach full of butterflies .........



Jasmin L. Wynn
03-30-09
8:30 pm


 

Reviews

[LisetteCanWrite!]

Wow.. great feelings here.. love the way it flows.. how much I miss that feeling ... it is so great to have someone who makes you feel that way.. to be there through everything.. to hear, feel and see everything and relate to it.. I hope your butterflies never go away.. great writing!!! Inspiring beyond belief!!! =)