Awkward as Fudge

The 10 people that are playing “Spin the Cup” (Other than Becki, Allison, Macy, Brooke and I)

1.       Danny - The cute, dark haired, really cool prince with the amazing smile, (The one who bought me the drink)

2.       Toby - The one with the red spiky hair (Which he explained that he and styled and colour sprayed just for the party) who was talking to Brooke earlier,

3.       Sam - The blonde haired boy that had spent most of the night with Allison (Though nothing had happened yet)

4.       Lewis - The boy who seemed to always have his tongue in Becki’s mouth.  (Allison later told me that he was Danny’s best friend up until two weeks ago when he started dating Becki.)

5.       Keith - The other boy in the blue tuxedo that had brought Chelsea in.  He looked like a Californian surfer with his blonde hair and tanned skin (apparently, his tan never wears off)

6.       Matt - The short one that Brooke had been talking to earlier.  He was okay looking, the only problem I had was his hair - it made him look like a girl, it was like a black bob.

7.       Jason - The tall, boring boy that had bought Macy her drink in the last challenge

8.       Chris - Toby’s friend.  He had also dyed his hair bright red and styled it spiky for the night.  They were supposed to be from some old band.

9.       Kelly - Who took time out of her amazing V.I.P.  schedule to come slum it with us paupers for about 5 minutes

And our 10^th player:

10.   Megan - Who had come over with Kelly to see what we were doing and sat in our circle with a look that said “I’m not supposed to be with you people”

That’s right.  It’s in literally every stereotypical teen movie that has a party scene.

We are playing spin the bottle (with a cup). 

It’s actually happening.  And I don’t know whether to look forward to this or run away. 

We’re all gathered round in a circle on the floor of the food room because it’s the room where you can hear the music the least and it has dim lighting, (which Becki claims will ‘set the mood’)

There’s 15 of us �" 7 girls, 8 boys, all the girls are all one side and all the boys are on the other. 

I have been given 10 minutes to kiss Danny. 

Any minute now, my heart is going to beat right threw my chest, and the butterflies are going to burrow their way out of my stomach.  Becki’s words keep going through my brain:

“It’s a plastic cup, so it doesn’t spin very far, fake your spin and really just point it to who you need to kiss!”

I once had to have an operation because I got a bead stuck up my nose and had to get it surgically removed.  Even then I was not as nervous as I am now. 

Becki’s going through the rules one final time before we start.  The butterflies in my stomach are on full swarm mode.

“Okay, the rules are pretty normal - If you spin it, you have to kiss whoever the open side of the cup points to.  Girls do all the spinning, and if you’re a girl and it points to another girl then you can spin again.  Who wants to start?”

And so the awkward silence begins.  Everybody’s looking around, hoping that somebody will nominate themselves and get started.  The only sounds around are the faint music in the background, and the beating of my heart.

“It was your idea!  You start!” Megan’s snarled.  Now she’s pursing her lips and giving Becki one of her signature Megan glares. 

She really shouldn’t have done that, ‘cause now Becki’s raising an eyebrow back and smirking at Megan. 

In a matter of seconds she’s fake-spun the cup in Lewis’s direction, jumped across the circle and now they’re swapping saliva.  Megan looks mortified, Brooke and Macy are staring wide eyed, most of the boys look jealous and Allison just looks bored. 

OMG.  They’ve literally been kissing for 3 minutes.  Seriously, do they not need air?  Everyone looks really awkward Ok, they’ve stopped.  Finally.  Becki looks pretty smug though �" she’s sitting back in her seat with a smug grin on her face and her arms are crossed.

“Anyone willing to go next?”

This is tense.  She and Megan are exchanging death stares.  Somebody needs to break the cattiness going on.

“I’ll go next!”  Allison’s declaring,

Finally, the tension between the two of them is gone and everyone is back on focusing on the cup again.  Allison’s spinning... and it’s Sam.

She’s raising her eyebrow at him and he’s smiling back, “I was hoping it would land on me” 

And with that he’s leaning across the circle and is giving her a peck on the cheek.  Allison really doesn’t look too happy.  I mean, it was sweet how shy Sam was, but I think Allison expected more.

Ok, so we’ve already decided that the girls are doing all the spinning of the cup and that we’re going around the circle. 

Which means I’m next.

Ok.  I’m going to throw up.

I’m just sitting here, and this white plastic cup is lying in front of me.  It’s taunting me.  It knows that I’m not brave enough to do this. 

This isn’t me.  I don’t do things like this. I don’t play spin the cup, I don’t kiss guys, I don’t do dares or challenges.  I’m boring and sensible and safe.  Why am I doing this?  Great now everyone’s waiting.  They don’t think I have the guts!

Ok, they’re right, but they don’t need to know that. 

It’s just a cup.  It’s just a spin.  It’s just a kiss.  A kiss with a boy.  Some random boy.  With gorgeous eyes.  And an adorable smile.  I can not do this.  I have to do this.  Ok, I’m doing this. 

The cup’s seems really fragile, like if I touch it will collapse.  Urgh, ok now I’m just making excuses.  I just need to spin it.  Without it looking staged.  Just point it towards him and act like I’m spinning it.

Ok.  That wasn’t so bad, I can breathe again �" the spin actually looked pretty realistic, I mean, it’s pointing directly at Danny.  

Oh gosh.  He’s looking from the cup to me.  I shouldn’t have done this.  What is he thinking?  He looks really confused.  This is not good.  I need to say something to break the awkwardness and show that I’m not as desperate as the cup is making me look.

“We’ve just met; I get it if you don’t want to kiss me”

Ok.  That was cool and calm enough.  I’m quite proud of myself, I made it casual and reasonable and it kinda sounded like I don’t care.  I do care though.  If he says no I might shrivel up and die, right here right now.

“You have to kiss her!  Those are the rules!” Becki’s protested.

I actually love Becki right now.  Like seriously.  I’m actually so glad that she’s enforcing the rules.  If I were to be rejected by Danny I would never live it down.  Never.

Ok he’s laughing �" that’s good.  Now he’s leaning across the circle.  In front of me.  Sfkksdjfhksldghjldskfj.  OMG.  His face is literally right in front of mine �" Like, if I were to inch closer even slightly our noses would touch.  Shoot.  He must be able to see every tiny little spot on my face.  OMG why did I just say that?  Now I have grossed myself out.  What if he thinks I’m grossed out by him?  Happy face, happy face. 

“I never said that I had a problem with kissing her!”

Ok, now my butterflies are flying around in a frenzy.  He just said that in a really deep whisper and ended it with a chuckle.  I can feel his breath on my face and it tickles slightly, it’s kinda cute.  It’s really cute.  He’s really cute.  His chuckle is cute.  His breath is cute. 

Shoot.  Shoot.  Shoot.  Shoot.  He’s going in to kiss me.  What if I’m not a good kisser?  This is not the way to do this �" with everyone watching.  I can’t do this, I will not do this.  Think fast....

Ok.  I just kissed him on the cheek and made everything awkward.  Why did I have to do that?  That was awkward as fudge.  Great I just made everyone’s evening awkward, I mean, his face �" he looks really confused and slightly rejected.  He’s staring into my eyes and his eyebrows are furrowed.  His eyes.  Are so perfect.  And I just made them sad.  I am a bad person.  Ok, I’ll just smile and giggle.  Smile and giggle.

 “Okay, Kelly and I have got to get back to Chelsea like now so I’m gonna quickly take my turn,”

And the awkwardness is broken by the monster herself who has now broken Danny and I apart, spun the cup, watched it face Lewis and practically jumped on him, grabbed his head and given him a big old snog before whispering “Text me later babe,” in his ear and getting up to leave with Kelly following behind her.

Becki looks heartbroken, and angry and jealous and vulnerable at the same time, but she’s brushing it off and carrying on. 

I don’t care.  Megan made it more awkward than I did. 

Just saying.