What am I doing here?

The generic I fell in love and he left me a mess type pf situation

Lately our encounters tend to get straight to the point.

I would go outside to get some fresh and shortly after you would appear or signal that you are outside, whether it be a whistle or calling me some sort of name. I then get up from the floor and look you straight in the eye and ask you what do want.

Then you go in with your famous line and ask me if I'm going to my car. I know then and there what it is that you want.  

Even though I despise doing what I do with my entire heart I feel that if I don't fulfill your needs then I would lose you forever.

And that is a risk I am not willing to take.

Author's Note

is anyone actually going to see this??