Living But Dead

The struggles we as humans face in life.

It is as if when I'm awake I'm not even breathing
Days go by and I'm completely dead inside
My body is dead
The pain of death has taken over
Not the physical but the mental
I cannot function
Trapped in and I can't get out 

Thoughts of never getting out of this state
The emotional trauma I have faced due to death is unbearable
To love something and watch it die right in your face
Is so unfair as if you are a two year old again fighting for a toy

Trying to hold on with every might but that toy just won't stay with you
That toy is gone and no matter how much you cry for it 
The toy is gone forever
The heart was made to keep beating but each beat feels a reminder
That one day it will stop and it will never come back
Looking at yourself in a mirror but not even recognizing yourself
The guilt you feel for your loved one being dead and you staying alive is painful
Guilt has been eating you away like a leach sucking out a person's blood
Life won't always be there but when it's time to say goodbye we can't
You will never get over death but you will find a way to cope with it one day
This life lesson I am still learning and I hope to understand more clearly without having to fight to get up each day

Author's Note

This is a poem that expresses my emotions I am facing right now in life due to the fact my grandfather died.I hope you all understand it and can connect to my poem.

Reviews

[Audrey Kanyera]

Oh such a beautiful poem little one. Death is not easy but one of the things that helped me with the loss of my sister is writing. Write as much as you want about him. It can be private, you do not have to publish it. Cry it all out, be emotional and remember all the good times. As time passes, the bitterness left by death is still there but it gets easier.

You are a poet, beautifully penned.

[jasmine barnett]

Thank you so much for writing this it means a lot to me and I will keep on writing.I'm sorry to hear about your lost.You are a great writer.