first piece

im feeling pretty down right now, cant find a job and running low on money and motivation. so i decided to write this

I live in a toxic life

My life is a toxic lie

I sit and watch the birds

While I sit, writing down these verbs

Will things ever get better, that’s like asking will the pool ever get wetter

they tell me to keep it real, but how am I to keep it real, when I cant even make these life long deals

my lifes in a wreck, but that just makes me look back. What have I done, where am I now, how far have I come to become this man now

I feel emptiness inside but I know its all lies

This is not who I am, this is not who I become

I am destined for greatness, even if I have to bite the curb and face the darkness

The light will always be shining, the money will always be green

I wait for the day, that I don’t rely on these ways

I cant sleep at night, I cant eat in the day

I have become a monster, someone I cannot ignore

Too long have I sat, too long have i stared

These walls are not going anywhere, I might as well jump right in

Even if I cant swim, the feeling of something, is better then nothing.

The future is near, but the past is closer

How is it easier to look back, when im always moving forward.

Im in this life for good, I cannot change who I am, but maybe I can change what I have become

Im ready to drop this world and start my own

No one will know, know one will care, its me myself and Irene, and this is just the begging of things

Author's Note

critique please