Future me

Someone on tumblr asked me what I would tell my future self, so yeah here I am sharing this with all of you.

Dear future me,

So we made it, that’s the best news i’ve heard all day.

I’m so proud of you, it doesn’t matter where you live, what your job is or who you fell in love with (or didn’t). I just want you to know that I’m proud of you and you should be too. Cause you f*****g made it.

But there are still a few things you have to do for me.

First of all i want you to do things better than I’m doing now, fall in love, go out, kiss the boy next door, tell your crush you love him, sing along with your favorite songs so loud that the whole world can hear you (even if you’re a terrible singer).

I hope that one day you buy every pretty dress you ever wanted. I hope you wear them and dance barefoot in summer and laugh. I hope you smile at little things, like flowers and the laughter of children. I hope you learn to speak italian fluently. i hope you go to Venice and every single country in Europe. I hope you never stop writing or drawing. Even when people say you’re bad at it - in fact, especially then. I hope you buy a bracelet everywhere you go until your arm is filled with them. I hope you stop beating yourself up about everything that’s out of control. i hope you have the guts to speak up when something is important to you. I hope you step out of your comfort zone. I hope you fall insanely in love with someone unexpected. I hope you forget about the past and learn to be happy.

Cause I don’t know if you realise but you can change your life any time you want like you can just go ahead and delete your blog, shave your head, stop eating meat, tell that person you hate why you hate them so much, confess your love to someone and kiss them unexpectedly like why don’t you do that?

I know you’ll have a thousand reasons why not to do that, but just promise me you will, okay?

Second of all don’t expect to wake up and realise that everything is perfect one day, that will never happen. That’s not how life works. But you have to be happy with what you got, and if you aren’t, change something about it. Leave this damn place and go on an adventure, it’s your life.

Also if you are a mom, please do it better than she did. You know how it felt, to cry yourself to sleep at night, to see your dad cry in front of the computer not knowing how we were going to make it. So do it differently, accept your kids how they are, let them discover the world, give them all the love they deserve and make silly jokes with them.

And please, I beg you, don’t grow up. It’s a trap. Keep laughing at your own jokes out loud, who cares. Buy yourself the silliest lava lamp you always wished for as a kid and go build sandcastles on the beach. get lost in random cities and call your dad to find your way back.

I also want you to trust people again, get out of your room and don’t stress over them not liking you. You can do this. I promise. Just get up and learn to love yourself.

Maybe this is a lot to ask, cause in those 16 years that I’m already here, I still didn’t manage to accomplish those goals. But you made it. You’re the better version of me. I believe in you. Don’t dissapoint me and follow your dreams pls.

I hope you have stopped crying about the past, I hope you stopped writing about her, I hope you have found someone you love, I hope you wrote down everything, I hope you are happy.

You are the person I’ve become, the person I’m dreaming about today, ready to face all those people out there and make a difference.

It happens to everyone as they grow up. You find out who you are and what you want, and then you realize that people you’ve known forever don’t see things the way you do. So you keep the wonderful memories, but find yourself moving on. And that’s a good thing, don’t blame yourself for doing that.

I want you to remember that happiness is a choice. Yeah, things in life make it difficult, but at the end of the day you control your own happiness.

Take care of yourself,

ily