A Life Study

A tired artist finds new inspiration and falls in love

 

To my monochrome life; in with the rustling leaves you blow

Shafts of orange sunlight anoint your delicate bones

Stripped to the waist; your body proud to show

I begin my craft of translating you into tones

 

Upon my canvas I give you life forever more

Whilst I fall hopelessly into a black abyss

After hours of stillness you turn to explore

As if seeing me suddenly with eyes of violet mist

 

Outside this enchanted space the autumn wind ripples

It playfully announces its presence through the eaves

Our shivering in unison, your awakened n*****s

Tear through the air and my ability to breathe  

 

I am alive with new inspiration! I am Picasso, Matisse!

I sweat as I frantically compose, define and render

A breathing life; born of unreached depths of expertise

Hues of gold, earth and India green display your splendour

 

You are the sumptuous feast of Autumn

A delicious palette of sensual shades

My masterpiece caught in the flood

Colours bleed as my hunger fades

 

I finish, panting, after what feels like a thousand hours

I swim in a pool of intensity I have only dreamed of knowing

Reality bites when you ask for money, a sign of your power

My heartbeat becomes but a murmur at the thought of you going

 

Now I walk empty streets that seem devoid of colour

My duffle shield battles with the blast

Of icy chill ripe with scents of seasonal fire

That smokes you out from memory that held you fast

 

A thousand hours of pleasure; I avidly studied

To be cut dead as coolly as a diseased limb

A soul now torn, wretched and bloodied 

A heart now drained; once full to the brim

 

Tangled and stained blankets on a single bed

I cuddle them for warmth; you watch me from the wall

A knowing promise of the solitary winter ahead

As my life empties of any colour at all

 

Reviews

[Sami Khalil]

A splendid read and write...Thank you for sharing...:)

One of the best poems ive ever read! This hits me on a personal level and for whatever reason it really got to me

[Pitta S Dev]

it is a great artistic piece of writing. All the best