I Couldn't Help it Christopher Robin

2007 I miss you bug boy

Ok my friend so I tried to dump it
It wasn’t working has only been hurting 
so wanted to get it away from me.
This thing called our friendship that should have from the beginning been a
beautiful uplifting thing
I got too caught up in my feelings for you.
in the physicality of us both that got in the way
did it matter
when 3 seconds after I met
you 
I looked at  your soul instead and found it
to be beautiful
wounded but beautiful
I miss our hikes and bikes
and wish we had been friends 
on trikes together 
we would have been a cute pair at 7
I wish that I could have been there for you
as a compassionate young girl to
care for you
when the darkness was around you
I wish
that I 
could have been geeky like you  
in those dance clubs encouraging you 
and finding those girls to dance with you.
to get them to see what I did.
I wish that I could have been there after  your heart was broken
to get drunk with you and shout at the sky
that love isn’t fair.
but I wasn’t 
I came along late
and right out of the gate
didn’t pay attention to fate
that we were only  meant to be as friends
that your heart would be entwined somewhere else and 
thus deep down I would wander off.