Chapter OneA Chapter by strawberryjamjellyfishIt’s
hard to pinpoint when a story actually begins. Is it when things start to get
interesting? Is it when things
start to noticeably change towards something? Or technically we can all say everything starts when we are
given life to this world. But if
every story started from the birth of someone, (whether we count a fetus as
“birth” or not is a total political issue that people rage over, so let’s just
not even turn to that page.) stories would all be the length of dictionaries,
and really, it’s only self-acclaimed smart people that actually read the dictionary
for fun so this story will skip right along to where things aren’t unbearably
slow. Chapter One “Shh,
they’ll see you.” Pulling
Cherine’s arm lightly, Layton whispered with a smirk on his face. “No they won’t, they’re too busy in
their own world anyway. F**k, they
probably won’t even care at this point.
They should though; I mean…ugh this is just all so… fucked up.” “Well you seem pretty fine
about it" judging from the fact you’re not upset. I was hoping more for a
sky-falling shocker face of misery, but this is fun in it’s own way.” The two, Cherine Matsuhara and Layton
Fei are standing outside of a classroom, peering in secretively at the actions
inside. “What the f**k was the
point in any of this?” “Well, it’s part of my job
to help you guys face reality, no?” * * * So this is where things really “start to move”. However starting
from here would be horribly confusing. All stories need buildup, everyone needs
a past and present. For the climax,
the story needs to go back about three months, when the two of our newly
introduced characters first met. Cherine Matsuhara.
Average height, grades, and
looks. Average age for a high
school story too. Sixteen. But
there is no such thing as average personality, and explaining her every
characteristic would take away from one’s imagination. Born under the Aries horoscope, she is
outgoing, and no one can seem to tell her wrong when she believes it’s
right. Her short bangs show off
her motivated eyes, and the blue streaks in her hair express the fact that she
has a sense of fashion, despite her high school being a uniform school. Cherine actually enjoyed the uniform
code though; it meant less time to ponder over clothes in life, and she thought
maybe if the girls were all wearing the same clothes, the guys would try and
look towards personality. This hypothesis crashed and burned Freshman year when she saw her
crush of four months go out with a too-short-for-uniform skirt wearing,
librarian volunteering girl who seemed to always have a button missing off her
shirt. Cherine often wondered
(even before her heartbreak) if she ever knew of wearing tank tops or white
bras, as the girl always seemed to be wearing black lacy bras that showed right
through the white uniform shirt and her missing second-counting-from-the-top
button. But she worked in the
library, and she had glasses.
Cherine saw right through it, and so did most of the other girls, but
high school guys’ brain cells were all usually pumped between their legs or was
being smoked out into the air in the bathroom. Either way, the “sexy librarian” character the girl created
worked, and Cherine, despite her efforts in having her crush notice her, had to
face the fact that a screw in his head was probably missing, just like the
girl’s button. Or who knows, maybe
the button, er no, the screw, just never exists for most guys. That was the conclusion Cherine came to
after something quite too similar happened to her about three times in a
row. “I’m not saying I want a high school sweetheart I’m going to marry,”
she would often say to her girl friends, “I’m just saying that it’s not that
hard to use the brain where it’s located.” She secretly admitted to herself though that the reason why
she was never too hurt was because she herself was never serious about the
men. But she also concluded to
herself that she was only 16, and so were they, so everyone’s equal. Cherine honestly wouldn’t even be able to answer if one were to ask
of her first impression towards Layton.
Their first encounter was the first History class of the year, in
September. “So, my name’s Mr.
Fei. And no, I don’t own a Chinese
restaurant. I’m going to be
teaching History to you kids for the year. I believe I’m also your homeroom teacher, but this is my
first time being a homeroom teacher so don’t ask too much of me. Let’s do some self introducing, shall
we?” Cherine’s brain processed up
to “Chinese”, (this was when she looked up to see if he was actually Chinese,
and was proved wrong.) and then she saw a face. A face she would not stop thinking about for the next 40
minutes of class, a face she would not stop looking at. Thanks to this, it took her forever to
remember everyone’s names and faces because the “self introductions” was muted
and every love at first sight song she could think of were ringing in her
head. After about 14 unheard names
and trying to be clever comments, the boy she had been singing to in her head
got up. “I’m Harrison.” He paused, and then nervously
smiled. “I don't really have any
smart funny thing to say, sorry.”
Harrison then sat down, and went back to talking to his neighbor, but
Cherine could tell he was a bit embarrassed by what he had said, and that that
was why he had went back to his conversation so quickly. “That’s fine, half of the ‘smart clever comments’ weren’t really
funny anyway.” Layton’s comment
had disappeared in mid air for Cherine, and all she could think of was: Harrison. He wasn't the cutest ever, he wasn't the smartest ever, he
most certainly wasn't the most clever or charismatic, but something about him
shot an arrow to Cherine’s heart. He looks like he could be in the woods with
like, squirrels. Cherine
thought. Or no, he would look really cute on stage with a keyboard. She then began to try and imagine him
playing every instrument she could think of; drums, guitar, bass, saxophone,
clarinet, flute (“Too Shakespeare looking” was her conclusion to that one),etc…
On and on and on. As she started
to imagine him with a tambourine, Cherine caught him turning back to look at
her. She could feel her face
slowly rise in temperature, and looking away, she noticed that he wasn’t the
only one looking back at her. So
was the rest of the class and Layton.
“Dreaming of another world already?” Cherine quickly got up, introduced herself, and pushed away
her embarrassment in her head by pretending she was really tired. She put her head down in efforts to try
and making it look like she was “too sleepy” to listen. Embarassment only lasted for a minute
because her mind quickly went on to think about something more important and
delightful: Harrison
had smiled at her. Well, in
reality, he was smiling at Layton’s comment towards her, but he was facing
Cherine, and that’s enough for a newly fallen in love girl to be flying in
wonderland about. In her defense,
Harrison had a unique smile that was eye-catching. His soft freckles and green eyes gave him a young look, and
when he smiled, his right eye slanted down as his lips parted slightly, showing
his teeth just the right amount.
Cherine also secretly had a minor fetish for pointy ears bony necklines,
which needless to say, Harrison owned.
Also,
let’s not forget about Layton. He,
unlike Cherine, could recall this moment as “their first encounter”. As he walked in the classroom and began
introducing himself, for the first time, he watched a girl fall in love. Love wasn’t quite the word, but to her
at the moment, it was nothing less than “love” that she had seen in so many
movies and books. Layton, being
older and more experienced, felt almost invading to watch this happen. The boy was clearly clueless to what
had happened in the past 15 seconds; in fact, he didn't even know the girl
existed yet. He suddenly felt as
if he was placed in a Best Coast song.
He stood in front of the
blackboard wondering to himself when the last time he had "fallen"
for someone as hard as this girl has (And thanks to this thought, Layton also
had a hard time remembering faces and names of the class) and if he was so open
about it. The girl he soon will find to be Cherine was sitting near the door,
obviously in thought about Harrison with her face slightly red and fingers restlessly
tapping on the table, probably coming from nervousness. As Harrison got up to
introduce himself, Layton could see that her mind had come back to reality for
the 30seconds he had talked. His introduction was nothing special, but Layton
couldn't stop himself from commenting, as a guy, whether old or young, he had
to give credit to the boy for having a secret admirer after sitting in a
classroom for 10 minutes. Harrison didn't exactly seem
anything special to Layton; dark caramel colored short hair, (actually, their bangs slightly match; the
girl must be thinking it's "destiny", Layton thought.) matching
colored light freckles, large green eyes, sharp nose and skinny eyebrows and
lips. The more he stared the more he actually saw something in the boy; he
isn't the most handsome at first glance, but he most certainly grows on you
somehow. He seemed pretty friendly as well, judging from his talk with his
neighbor. Layton looked over at the
girl. She also wasn't the prettiest in the bunch, but she clearly wasn't one to
want to be the prettiest out of the bunch either. Her black hair up to her
shoulders had blue streaks and her bangs were cut short, her eyes dreamy,
gazing at her new axis of her world. Her brown eyes, not as large as
Harrison's, was accented with a small birthmark under her right eye. He could
tell even from a distance that she had long eyelashes from the distinct shadow
it created in her eyes. She was attractive, maybe not to everyone but to many,
Layton believed. That is, if she even cared about the rest of this world.
"Dreaming of another world already?" It took her a second to
even process that; probably because she was too busy trying to reason why
Harrison was turned towards her. "Hello, I'm Cherine...nice to meet you
all." Cherine quickly sat back down and put her head on the desk. Really, thought Layton, pretend you're asleep. That gets more and
more useful as you grow older.
This was finally the moment Layton had made a "first
impression" for Cherine without Harrison being a part of it. It was:
"A painfully embarrassing girl." Harrison had no clue of any
of this going on. All that was really on his mind was the show he had planned
to go to with his friend sitting next to him. Despite this fact,
Cherine's heart was blooming roses. It had been a while since she had been
interested in anyone, which made it seem even more of a destined meeting. The
fact that the classes were probably just divided automatically in a computer
system never crossed Cherine's mind, and she had forgotten Layton's existence
by the time she walked out the door. What was on her mind was how she was going
to talk to Harrison for the first time. Cherine knew she was the type to base
people on first impressions, and had found nothing wrong with the idea. Instincts are like Sharpie, she often
told herself. And 70% of a first
impression is made from their instincts. But the 30%.... She had no idea
she had just made a rather embarrassing first impression to someone already,
thank god, which meant she still had some sort of strength to not make such a
fool of herself. Sadly, Harrison wasn't a part of her next class (in which she
will get a lecture from the next day because she didn't know any of the
supplies she was supposed to bring) but that gave her plenty of time to
simulate her first talk. In conclusion, her first talk
went fine enough that they quickly became good pals. They had similar tastes in
music and food, (which Cherine was delighted about, since it was an excuse she
could use to go grab a bite after school) and went along to a few shows
together. Cherine could tell this wasn't the usual "oh yeah, he's kinda
cool, I'd go out with him" feeling; it was so much more. But at the
same time it felt so much easier, as they started to get so close that saying
anything to each other would make no difference in the relationship. Except for
Harrison's words, three months into their friendship. New Years was coming, and
Cherine was a little annoyed at the fact that she had not seen Harrison for
winter break at all. Yes Christmas is a
family/girlfriend event, but really, I'm sure Jesus would be happy if a group
of friends (or a pair in her case) was celebrating for him. It's the thought
that counts, right? This was Cherine's idea that she didn't have the
courage to bring up to Harrison. They had been texting about nonchalant talks
and had vaguely brought up the idea of hanging out, but nothing was set on the
table, which worried her that perhaps they weren't as good of friends like she
believed them to be. On the 29th of December, just
as Cherine was rolling in her bed trying to get him off her mind desperately, a
theme song of her favorite game filled her room suddenly. Surprised from the
sudden music, she thought for a split second that small green aliens were going
to roll her into a ball like the game, but quickly realized she had just
changed her ring tone to stop herself from telling herself she heard the phone
ring. "Hello?" Distracted from the ring tone thought, Cherine picked
up without looking to see the caller was; but to her pleasant surprise, it was
the one call she had been waiting for. "Hey, what's up?" She had not
heard Harrison's voice in years it seemed, (in reality time it had only been a
week) and his clear voice seeped into her ear to mind instantly, filling her
even more with thoughts of him. "Oh Harrison, what's up?” She
desperately tried to sound as casual as possible, but she could feel her lungs
shaking as she breathed. She hated the fact Harrison had grew so much power
over her. "Nothing really,
enjoying the break. What's your plans for New Years?" "Um...nothing really in mind,
maybe calling some friends to hang out. Why?" Being half Japanese,
Cherine knew she had plans for New Years with family, but like most other 16
year old girls, getting to hang out with your crush came before all.
"Oh, well did you know Camps are having a New Years show? It's
free, I'm sure there'll be a bunch peeps but we should go." Camps
was Cherine's all time favorite band. They weren't liked by much around her at
all, or known at all really, but Harrison was as big of a fan as she was.
It was a habit that they've grown together to sing their songs anytime
they'd see something that represented any of their lyrics. Cherine, needless to
say, absolutely loved that. "Really? Camps? Of course!
Oh god we can finally go to a Camps show together!!" Harrison
laughed, and just from his tone, she could tell exactly what face he was
making. Cherine imagined his smile, and she could hear in his laugh he
was excited too. "We should try and get there a little early just in case,
I feel like they'll be a lot of peeps there for the f**k of it being a free
show on New Years." " Yeah definitely, I wouldn't
forgive myself if I missed this."
With you, she said to herself in her head. "Oh yeah I know. It's weird,
we've seen so many shows together and our one favorite we had yet to see."
"I know! And it'll be great since it's New Years
too!" "And for other
reasons." Harrison paused,
and chuckled. Cherine felt like she was missing a joke, or she had somehow been
made fun of, but she was too excited to really care for more than half a second.
"I'm telling you, it's gonna be f*****g great. Dude, I hope they
play..." Harrison started to sing her favorite Camps song, and Cherine
sang along, knowing he brought that song up knowing it was her favorite. That's
what she loved about Harrison; they had known each other for not too long, but
he always seemed to make the effort to get to know her. Cherine often tried to
return the favor, but there was always an uncertainty in her that wasn't quite
sure what the line between "friendly nice girl" and "girl that's
obviously into me" was. She
didn't want him to think she remembered everything he told her (she pretty much
did; she had awfully good memory when she put it in use), but she wanted him to
know she cared. A lot. Layton
had typical plans for New Years: drinking. He had absolute no care for it at
all though, for he didn't understand what made New Years so different from
every other day people drank and partied. He enjoyed the fireworks, but even
that was usually ruined by crowds of drunks and tourists. Unlike Cherine, he
didn't have a crush calling him up to go to a show, or cute duets over the
phone. And although he had a girlfriend, or a girl he thinks he's
"dating", he wasn't exatic about the idea of kissing her as the year
starts, or drinking with her, or even seeing her as a matter of fact. It wasn't
her fault; she was fine. But just fine. He liked her, but he wasn't in love
with her in any way. He wondered lately if he even really liked her, or if he
just liked the idea of having someone around that liked him. As
Cherine continued to roll in her bed after her phone call, (this time from
extreme hyper excitement in which she couldn't handle so later falling off the
bed over) he sat in his studio apartment, blowing a cigarette in front of his
laptop wondering to himself why he had been feeling so bland. He had everything
he thought he would have at this age; an apartment, friends, a job, a girl, and
most of all, freedom. What more could he want? At 28 years old, I shouldn't be thinking like this, Layton thought. He closed his laptop, and inhaled his
cigarette. He tried to remember how he was in high school, thinking that that's
the time a person's mind is most active. It was
in high school that he first decided he wanted to teach. In his young mind, he
decided he wanted to be someone in school the students could go to, because he himself hated school. He had friends, he had girlfriends, he had good grades. But the feeling of being trapped never
left him, and grades all just felt like judgement to him. He felt it was so unfair that students
had to be kept in this institution when they were the most active and
flourished. On the downside, he understood that it was also the time where
teens were most unstable. But then why weren't anyone helping out? This thought
became stronger in Layton when his ex girlfriend from freshman year came up to
him and told him she was pregnant. It was senior year then, and they had not
talked since their breakup in sophomore year. The last he had said to her was
"F**k you," and the last he ever heard her say was "I'm
sorry". Two years later, she was coming up to him crying hysterically in
the staircase. All he had done was bump into her accidentally, and here she
was, in a total emotional mess. This was the incident that made it clear to
Layton that he wanted to be someone to help students out. It wasn't right for
her to have bottled everything in to the point of busting out on an ex. Layton had almost forgotten that
even happened, and that it was the reason of his current career. I guess New
Years does make you reflect. *
*
* New Year's Day was when
Cherine finally got what Harrison was trying to say over the phone. Her
favorite song was an encore song, and as soon as the guitar had played its
first note, she could tell it was her song. She jumped and danced in excitement
(so did 200 other people around her) and Harrison danced right along with her.
Cherine couldn't hear them singing, but they could see that their mouths were
in complete sync, and all the sudden, so were their lips. For a second, Cherine couldn't really
comprehend what had happened; it felt so natural that it did. It was when they
had gone back to dancing when she finally registered that they had kissed. It
wasn't at a romantic dinner, it wasn't even private, and it wasn't in the rain
like every movie she'd watched. But even though they were covered in 200 other
people's sweats, spit, and whatever other form of liquid, it was the best
ending to the year she could ask for.
Things stayed stable afterwards, and the new year seemed like it was
going to be the best for the both of them. Harrison never really explained his
actions that night, but there was an unspoken mutual understanding between
them. Or so Harrison thought. One
month into the relationship, Harrison bought Cherine an anniversary gift and
date, and this was when it finally went through Cherine's head that they indeed
had been dating. "What did you
think this was then?"
Harrison laughed as she explained herself. "I mean, I thought we
were dating, I was almost sure of it, but like, you never actually said anything.."
He blocked her words with a kiss. "I guess sometimes words mean more than
actions?" Two months ago when this happened, Cherine
thought that she had finally found something that truly meant the world to
her. Layton had also noticed that
they had stated going out, and was generally happy for the two. His
relationship on the other hand, wasn't exactly in the best condition.
Suspicions were building that she had been cheating on him, and the worst part
was that Layton couldn't bring himself to really care. In fact, he found it almost amusing to
watch their relationship turn into a sort of a child playing house. It wasn't
that he wasn't hurt over it, which is why he had not broken up with her; he had
been waiting for a perfect situation. Layton also didn't want to hurt others in
the process, and he knew that would be inevitable. It was when Layton was
wondering about all of this, that he and Cherine would have their first actual
conversation. (Besides talking about history, of course.). He had been in the
empty history classroom after school organizing the students papers, when Cherine
walked in. "Oh hey Mr. Fei," she looked a bit surprised to see him.
"Am I not allowed to stay in my own classroom? You seem disappointed the room isn't empty." "Well no, I'm just
looking for a room to be in while I wait for Harrison." "You can stay here.
You can also help me clean the place up a bit too, though." Cherine made a face, and then quickly
began to laugh. "You're always so good at getting people to do stuff for
you." Layton had heard that
many times before. Whether or not he agreed with it, was another question.
"So, that's why you were disappointed the room wasn't empty." "What?" "You're waiting on
Harrison right? Aren't you two
dating?" Cherine's face bursted
into red. That wasn't on her mind at all, but Layton's words made her imagine a
situation that could've happened. "No, Mr. Fei, god really? It's not like that. I mean it is, but
no, I mean we're dating, but.." Layton found it quite amusing to watch the
girl stumble upon her words and thoughts in embarrassment. He then felt a sense
of guilt to what was ahead of her. "I know, I was joking. How are you
two?" "We're good,
we're...yeah." She blushed
even more, and put a gentle smile on her face. It was the kind of smile that
Layton had not seen in a while; it was so naïve. Cherine was smiling for the
sole reason of Harrison and their relationship. He could tell it made her
wholeheartedly happy. Layton then realized what he had been so uncertain about
for the past few months. It was because he had not been able to feel anything
as wholeheartedly as this girl had, he had not been able to fully put himself
in a situation; always slightly cold about everything. "Well," Layton
felt his heart beating unsteadily. Something had changed in him; was this
realization more of an epiphany?
"That's good for you two." He suddenly wanted to change, wanted to feel like things
mattered, and the bad wasn't such a big deal. Like her. "I've always felt
you were a peculiar teacher," Cherine said as she organized the world maps
in the room, "I like you though, and so does Harrison. Oh, did you
know? There's a rumor going around
that you.." Layton wasn't
really listening to Cherine at this point anymore; all that was on his mind was
how to turn all of this upside down. He felt horrible that he would have to
drag her into this, but he also knew it would be better for her in the end.
Layton always believed a little sadness makes a girl more beautiful. Besides,
he was interested in how she would react. Once Layton made up his mind, he
never went back. "Can you actually take these papers to Ms. Morrison's
room?" Those words that
Layton said was what would shatter Cherine in fifteen minutes. Ms. Morrison was Cherine
and Harrison's English teacher. Unlike Layton, she was very firmly a teacher;
never crossing the line with students.
Many liked her for her niceness though, but Cherine could never make up
an opinion about her because she felt Ms. Morrison to be very distant. Her classroom was half a hallway away
from Layton's. She walked down the
hall wondering how long it was going to take Harrison to... Cherine suddenly felt
someone watching her. She quickly turned around, only to find that she was
alone in the hallway. "Stop it, please." As she walked a step towards the door to Ms. Morrison's
room, she heard a voice. "I really wasn't trying to let this happen. And
neither were you, I'm sure. You have someone too." "Barely. He doesn't care. I'm just...'around',
you know? You see me though. You
care. " "I care, but not in
the way you're thinking. And quite
frankly, unlike you, she cares about me.
I like where I am in the relationship." "I know, but..."
"You're the one that
ended things, it's unfair for you to talk like this now. Besides, it's too
late." "You were heartbroken
though. I know you. You still care. You aren't the type to hate someone like
me. I don't care if it's
sympathy." Cherine was now in front
of the door, carefully trying to listen without letting herself seen in the
window. It was almost an instinct; she didn't want to hear anything being said,
but she knew she needed to. "I don't love you." "You will
again." "I don't care, I
don't want to do this. It's too late, you missed your f*****g chance. You broke
my heart yeah, but it's whatever now. Don't try to use me to fill your gaps
up." Cherine couldn't
comprehend what exactly was happening. She knew it was important; she knew it
was crucial for her to know what was going on. She heard footsteps, but she
couldn't move. She peers in the window. Ms. Morrison was leaning towards
Harrison, touching his hair. Why is she touching his hair? Cherine tried her hardest to think of
other situations this could be. "Stop Ms. Morrison." "Call me by my name
like you did." "You weren't a
teacher then. Please.." Harrison tried to move away, but Ms.
Morrison's look was strong. She knew what she wanted, and she knew a part of
him wanted it too. Slowly, she inched closer and closer to his face. As slow as
it was in real life, it seemed even slower in Cherine's mind. No, she thought
to herself, no, no no. “Shh,
they’ll see you.” Pulling
Cherine’s arm lightly, Layton whispered with a smirk on his face. “No they won’t, they’re too busy in
their own world anyway. F**k, they
probably won’t even care at this point.
They should though; I mean…ugh this is just all so fucked up.” “Well you seem pretty fine
about it, judging from the fact you’re not upset; I was hoping more for a
sky-falling shocker face of misery, but this is fun in it’s own way.” The two, Cherine Matsuhara and Layton
Fei are standing outside of a classroom, peering in secretively at the actions
inside. “What the f**k was the
point in any of this?” “Well, it’s part of my job
to help you guys face reality, no?” © 2013 strawberryjamjellyfish |
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Added on May 8, 2013 Last Updated on May 8, 2013 Tags: romance, young, love, first love, boy, girl, teachers, students, high school, coming of age AuthorstrawberryjamjellyfishNew York, NYAboutJapanese 21 year old girl that lives in NYC...wanted to share a hobby of mine here xoxo leave comments good/bad! :) more..Writing
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