Finding the light

Fighting for sometime, just to avoid the inevitable
I didn't see that it hurt worse just to hold on,
I knew it wasn't there and
hoped things would go my way
avoiding the hurt that surely caught me
anyway


When every good thing began to fall like flies
I tried my best to pick up the pieces before
they were lost to me forever 
lost in the mess
I shifted everything
against me in the
process


Everything changed
my world faded to black
I waited, wishing and watching
for the day
to get what I held so close
back

Waking up to the light
I tried to gather my dignity;
 took some time to find
but somewhere deep in
I remembered I do,
have the power to fastforward
don't look to the past,
and dont dare touch
rewind

So maybe one day,
when all is said and done
with or without you,
I did all I could
you didn't win
and instead of letting you kill me softly
I can say, I refused to let you nail in my
coffin