eternity

I’m at this point

I lost everything I use to want

Love once resided here

No longer in my heart I feel all alone

All the word I said and promises I meant

Snatched back and erased from history

I’m staring into space

Nothing quite makes sense

I thought I had it all figured out

Tears pour from my eyes

My identity discarded and burned in front of me

All that is of my memory are the scars of the past

Forced to struggle again

I want to come home to someone everyday

Every single day I want everything to last and never go away

Maybe, that’s it

Maybe my own vision and mindset, distorted

I use to know all it took

I was confident and I had ambition

Basically the prize was mine for the taken

Somewhere my heart got cold

All the warm and heated weather, consummated by arid winter season

I just want to be happy

I had it all, as I plummeted head first from the stars

Faint waves of things that use to be

Here after everything I’m left with shards of me

Here after it all, after I tore you from my mind and spirit

Comes a season of heart break

My strength and valor robbed from me

Something inside is very wrong with me

Something inside draining every part of me

Shouts and yells, telling someone to save me

I’m too distant from life itself; no one can hear me, but me

Once seen as the hero and guiding light

Now I struggle like a worn out headlight

Every day is way to turn back

Rhythms no longer flow so sound

I’m off key, at least that’s what it feels like to me

I try not to think about the pain or hurt

I try to let things just find me

If I stop searching will I lose my moment?

If I stop believing I can find love that’s right for me, what will become of me?

Love is what I’m made of

Trying to get people to see the real me, I just can’t do it anymore

Trying to make myself be what others want me to be, I just can’t take it

So I’m at the bottom of the lake, I can no longer fake it

I hit rock bottom

I can just picture it all

I can see it, a life with just me

Being unable to be close to others

Reverting to the way I use to be

Deathly afraid to be a part of others world

That life I can’t accept

How I can be me, if everything good I do backfires on me

The light beaming off my eyes, as I face lies

I have a million things to say, and it’s so funny I can’t make anyone understand how I feel everyday

I have a million ideas, but I just can’t convey the right message

Just doing what pleases me, it’s not enough

My legs in quick sand

I think I have everything right

But there it soon happens

I lose it all

I lose my focus

I’m asking for help, I’m trapped inside the well

Drowning on my own sadness

As my final breathes are used to fight madness

It’s not about the material things, the fancy things

I’m a loving man I only want what’s real

An emotional man, losing hope everyday

As my life passes by and I don’t get a chance

Reviews

[Sami Khalil]

Nice poem with a lot of lines to pick from.
I like :
Love once resided here.
forced to struggle again.
the prize was mine for the taking.
faint waves of things...
Thank you for sharing.

[wesleydaauthor]

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[Sami Khalil]

You are welcome...