I Don't Even Know (The One)

I'm a big fan of spur of the moment poems that come from the heart without much prior thought....this is one of those....my coping mechanism...don't judge me....

I don't even know 

Why I am writing

To express the feelings 

From which I'm hiding

To regurgitate 

my heart on paper

A reference point of memories

Summrized for later

They call them good old days

For a dead on reason

But my cheated heart

calls those days treason

A complete crime

But a crime of passion

Bad choices made

With a mind devoid of ration

Those days I miss

Will never come back

Made totally sure

When we turned our backs

And now Im staring

into the black

Trying to get

My life back on track

Your words derailed me

Caused time to stand still

Boxcars and my heart stop

And I'm overcome with a chill

Never knew a phone call

And the sound of your voice

Could so accurately

Depict the sorrow of your choice

It all made sense

But I didn't get it

Like why right now?

Did we both just forget?

About the promises

And the emotion

About the feelings

And all sensible notions

Your reasoning

seemed logic based

Clear thinking would make sure 

Your love never went to waste

I think I've accepted

No, I'm not bitter

Yes, I've come to terms

But you were the quitter 

I think you're right

Let's still be friends

And navigate life together 

through the curves and bends

But I won't lie

I miss you way too much

Now I'm trying to drive stick

And I'm struggling without a clutch

So we'll keep living

with too many memories

Go separate ways 

But promise me please

That you'll always remember me.

Because there's nothing like living life without the one you thought was "The One"

Author's Note

sigh.