concern

you call it selfish because it is.

your thoughts race about your next step when it should be thoughts of well wishes.

you fear all is over.

you need to stop while you're ahead.

another bullshit thought keeping you from thinking about your friend.

it's all too early to say because you only know a small piece of the truth.

but you can't stop wondering what comes next.

you won't know until you know for sure and that's not something you'll know right now.

just keep your mind racing back and forth from him to you to him.

don't count on not knowing until you do.