i love you, someone help me

I'm sorry, I am no your full disgrace

I am your man

I am not the tv shows

I am your man

 

I will give you a baby of your own

I am your man

Yet i am not the perfect show

I am a man

 

Yes i am not a man of yours

I am a man

I deem that no memory is real

I am a junkie

 

I see things like beuatiful girl

on 6th ave and 56th

just short of central park

holding that babe and cooing and loving

thats why i loved you

 

why did you do this to me

why do i destroy myself on a nighlty basis

i was always good to you

i went crazy

i dove into the warmth of drugs

i want to die now, by drugs

 

because, when i fall asleep, in my dreams

i am what we should have been

im not a model

i am a man

i went to war

i stood by you

i gave you my heart

even though you didnt ask

and im taken by drugs while i write this

and i hope to die soon,

in a noble way

to please my family

i am worthless

but i used to be amazing

until you

but still......

 

i love you

 

by lj thirsk

(the hopeless drunk)