To Arreis

A Poem by jaiarius

You’d maybe wish I’d hold this in my love, don’t worry sweetheart. We get better with age baby, but you were my best friend.. I hate that I loved you forever.

I remember you.
You always made me
depreciate time.

Time is forever.
Why weren’t we?
Thought it could’ve
been. Though, it
wasn’t. Farewell,
my lady.

You reminded me
of the moon. How it
shines but it’s still,
still so alone. Why
would it ever hold
on? Everything that’s ever
been with you..
always has gone.

Wonder what made
you afraid to think, I
came to stay. Oh but Arreis
darling I wish I knew..

Like a blooming flower
we grew.. and we grew
but soon something had
to be new. Why’d we have
to renew? How can I ever redo?
to be but not to be if
not meant without you.

Don’t forget, I told you
I thought you were perfect.
Conversations with you
in the dark. Anything, everything
I always knew you were worth it.
Thinking of me as someone who’d

be the person to make you
seem worthless.. did I really
deserve this? Oh f**k
curse this, this is the worst-est.

To what’s nothing, you made
it have purpose. Run away,
leave me here. I don’t
want anyone to ever find
or to unearth this. Curses

Arreis, be honest.. you know
that you changed quick.
A change that I was
supposed to keep up with.
I wanted you to read me

Not even in the beginning
You never did it, b***h.
When I call you b***h..
I never have so I hope
that you know that I don’t
mean that s**t. I wanted
the meanest kiss

It probably might have
redeemed this s**t.
Gave us a new meaning with
the keenest sense.

You can take me out of space
somewhere like Venus s**t.
We’re like the wrong size shoe
This didn’t mean to fit.

I keep a smile on my face
It’s true what they say:
“Looks kill.”
Im looking for the next pill.

She’s bringing guys over
and letting the sex heal.
I’m willing