My Soul

The best way to put this is my past in writing.

Sometimes I just want to get away;
Take a step back to look at my yesterdays.
Repent for all the things that I’ve said and done,
And be proud in myself that I was the only one
To stay away from the drugs that tore apart my friends;
Although I was attached to the bottle it came to an end.
Only by the grace of God one day
I saw the light within and finally found the way.
Nobody was to blame but me for the person I had become;
I tried to blame my father for staying out of my life, but knew I was the only one
To pick up the soul I once knew from the ashes;
Give my life to God with no other circumstances.
Through him I now know trust and forgiveness he can provide;
In my heart, through his strength I know I can now rely.
He’s given me a loving family, and great friends unbound.
It’s only by his grace I had opened my eyes and was found.
I can still see that gun pointed at me clearly in my mind
That personified my fear and the love I had left behind.
I found myself again though, far along the way
When I left Boaz behind and trusted God as the only way.
Though it hurts I admit, I miss it all from time to time.
It was just something I had to do; I had to leave my former self behind.
I thank God for giving me a second chance to know his love and grace.
Because of him I’m better off; because of him I’m within this place.