Turning The Page

This song is a lot about my original father and how I felt at the time about him. With time comes forgiveness and I'm still learning, but this is the best way that I can express it.

It's been three years since you said goodbye;
I can't count the tears I've tried to hide;
The anguish of you blood flowing through my veins.
Throughout the alchohol, the drugs and abuse
You left my heart battered and bruised;
I try to escape, but the pain never seems to fade.
Now I can stand on my own all I see
Are these torn photographs of what used to be;
What could have been, if you never had went astray.
I've forgiven you but the the pain remains;
The words left unsaid only intensify the strain
Of a broken heart that now slowly seems to heal.
For every time that you were'nt there
I turn the page, but the words seem bare,
As if my life is uncertain; my own destination to choose.
I don't know where you are, or if you loved me at all,
But the fact remains that I'm far too strong
To be brought down by the images of yesterday.
One of these days I'll have kids of my own,
And when I look in the eyes of the seeds that I've sewn,
I'll be able to look back and be proud of where I stand.
Proud of who I am, my faith in God,
Some decisions I've made, despite the cost
of a father who was never really there at all.
I've been alot of places and made alot of mistakes;
These images of you I can't seem to erase,
But when I look back I'll know I've truly moved on.
So this is the end of what could have been;
The end of a chapter, left so bare by a cold heart that could never see the truth.
So for now I say goodbye to all the ties and all the lies
That kept me from becoming the man I'm meant to be.
No longer angry, or struck with grief,
These words represent me standing on my feet;
I hope you're proud of me, but I'll be moving on...