a shoulder to lean

        my world of friendship is that i like to talk with all but not moving into close contacts and forming groups.but when ARSHU came it started to change .i started to share my pain within two days of our chat i felt comfort and secure with him.
        On third day,i felt like my heart has to be peeled of so that i wont get hurt any further.The who was so called to be my friend treated me as a s**t which never expected  and my tears rolled down my chin which felt so hot to stop feeling the world spinning like hell around me.i blocked that friend and was crying like hell.ARshu consoled me that night.
        ARSHU"u can lean on my shoulders come let me give u a hug."
         but i refused because i m not used to it.i cant hold myself for a long time.i cant share with my sisters because i felt its not good to be shared with them.but i just cant.
        I,with pain "ARSHU can u hold me for few minutes." even its in facebook i felt like his arms were around me comforting me some how deep inside....  i just felt something held me that second.it was 3 in morning.he asked me to sleep because we both had college that day and its almost sunrise. we said goodnight to each other and i slept.
        morning i felt so tired but still wanted to go to college so that i wont think about the previous night.ARSHU used to wake late at 8-9am but my college will start soon.i wished him good morning in facebook.for first time i messaged him to his mobile thanking him again and again for his help last night and went to college.but i got fever because of last night effect and took half a day leave and went home.
        wanting to sleep and thought to forget everything .i am not that kind of girl to sit in a corner and cry because of some moron.but this thought didnt arise when leaned on a shoulder to cry.even i havent met him even i havent talked to him personally even we are not from same state he was there for me to give a shoulder to lean................