Confusion

An account after a successful Bhakti yoga session

Words
But no words
Not naming things
To be without periods
Without end
Searching for meaning
But not searching for answers
To define
Without a label
Discovery
Self-exploration
Outward expansion
But not exactly
Because not knowing
But knowing that I don't know
Not caring
But caring enough to know that I should
Which goes back to knowing
None of which I do
Or I don't
I just don't know
Or I do
It's a spiral
I'm sliding down
Into the abyss