Often I wonder...is it worth it

Wake up

 

 

 

 

Often I wonder…is it worth it

 

Opening my eyes to blurred red numbers,

broken lines of early hour countings,

as gloomed darkness peers through streaked windows

and dusty mini blinds create silent wooden horizons

 

Groaning, upright now on the edge of the mattress…stretching,

rubbing my face to remove the remnants of last night,

shoving aside the warmth of my faded flannel blanket,

then finding a cold floor giggling at the touch of my naked feet

 

I recall the dream, my last moments of sleep…weird…real feeling

Aerosmith, a souvenir stand in Wildwood and an iPad

Sketchy but still there (and I wish I were too)

Don’t ask….

 

I can hear my dogs grunting at the foot of bed

(Probably chasing raccoons in their heads)

What a life, eating, sleeping, no need for love (in that sense),

just a nice pat on the head every once in a while satisfies

 

Sometimes I guess that is all it takes, all we can hope for…

Still sitting here, yawning…thinking…

Why do I do this each day, every day, the same routine,

the deepest rut, like tire tracks in fresh mud, straight, never ending…

 

Then, as the tiniest glint of sunlight sifts the tenebrous room

I think of you…my happiness, my everyday purpose and it all becomes clear

Smiling now, I stand and greet this brand new beautiful day…wide awake

Often I wonder, is it worth it...and then I wonder why I wonder

 

Author's Note

Thank you for reading

Reviews

[Thomas Fitzgerald]

One wonders these things often and never creates a new answer, well done, good read.

[Jack...]

Thanks so very much Thomas.

[Blue]

One of my favorites of yours, Jack. Your wistful thoughts are intellectually stimulating.

"I can hear my dogs grunting at the foot of bed
(Probably chasing raccoons in their heads)
What a life, eating, sleeping, no need for love (in that sense),
just a nice pat on the head every once in a while satisfies"

-See? That's why I love dogs. Haha.

Beautifully worded, Jack. Please give me a free copy when you're published someday. ;)

[Jack...]

No problem my friend. Thanks so very much for always bringing your beautiful smile to my world.

[Cassie]

I love the ending of it, when you have some one who loves you and whom you love, then that is the best thing it makes one forget all the pain.

[Jack...]

You are so very right dear Sunshine. Thanks so much.

[Henryglass]

So somber in a beautiful way. Beautiful ending. I love the way your words ring so true. Thanks.

[Jack...]

Thanks so very much Henry.

[Ken Simm.]

It does a body good to realise that they are not the only one's to feel like this. although the majority cannot express it as well.

[Jack...]

Thanks Ken. Coming from a poet I so admire, your words thrill me this day.

[Claire in VA]

Very nice write, Jack.
Sometimes we need a change.
Change can be good.
Enjoyed!!

[Jack...]

Thanks so much Claire

[Ruth]

A cycle at times...life at its most potent dear Jack, I always enjoy reading you love, you share such honest emotion, it is humbling x

[Jack...]

Poppy, your review humbles me...thank you for everything.

[LadySoDivine]

If you have someone to wake up to, someone to hold you, someone to tell you it will all be okay and someone who will chase all of the horrible nightmares away - it's worth it. Wonderfully penned, Jack, loved every single line of it. :)

[Jack...]

Thank you my friend. I am always happy to see you visit. I appreciate your always sweet words to me.

[Pryde Foltz]

I can hear my dogs grunting at the foot of bed
(Probably chasing raccoons in their heads)
What a life, eating, sleeping, no need for love (in that sense),
just a nice pat on the head every once in a while satisfies

Most masterful slice of life write, Jack.

Oh but, about the dogs
I can tell you why they don't feel the need for romantic love
but I can also tell you it definitely isn't worth it (tee hee)

[Jack...]

Thanks so much my friend. I appreciate your kindness and yeah, the dogs.....