At my expenseA Poem by Jack...When you lose someone you care for, life my be a stage, but a very lonely one.
At my expense Sawdust coated planks of worn grain and smooth edges find toes tapping inside hard brown leather shoes, not polished since Sunday’s pot luck allowing scuffs formed on lonely sidewalks to glow beneath the lights, suspended over head The din of the crowd plays to my nerves, (I peek from the side) Aunt Lucy’s pleated skirt moves involuntarily with her words as she gossips to anyone who will listen Politicians shake hands as they take the prime seats, balding heads blocking views and causing children to giggle Sweat beads, runs, drips on my rented suit, speckles of gray on white linen, charging the heat with reckless abandon as creases relax and I adjust my belt with the precision of the previous wearer Thick fabric, paisley and purple, stained by age but still magnificent in appearance, hide me from the gathering of locals and visitors alike…when I hear the band ring up, happy go lucky music brings this sense of urgency to my ever quickly beating heart Stage hands bounce back and forth and a thumbs up lets me know it is time… music reaches a crescendo as the curtain lifts skyward and I am faced with the reality that has all to often been a dream and then a nightmare I step to the front, clear my throat, begin counting the many eyes staring at me, searching for greatness, brilliance, charm and I read my poem…penned the day I lost you, the day my heart shattered, the day my world ended No applause today, as I stand on this sad stage gazing at gaping mouths, wide-eyed disappointment as I pray the curtain drops as quickly as it rose allowing the comedian to rescue the audience with his offering of humor…at my expense © 2013 Jack...Author's Note
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Added on July 23, 2013Last Updated on August 12, 2013 Tags: loss AuthorJack...San Antonio, TXAboutNot much to tell about me, I am just Jack, I am a poet, a writer, a musician, a painter, a builder and a dreamer. I live in south Texas but am originally from New Jersey and miss it more and more all .. more..Writing
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