The letter to Myself

Poem challenge to MusicMania's challenge of our 13 year old selves (Poetry Challenge Group)

There is a place,

that I wish I could stay,

that I wish I could fulfill my ambition,

as a healer or a person who stand out for a justice,

but,

I knew I cannot stay,

because we moving out a lot,

as an army daughter,

I cried without tears,

I hate without be known,

when that is my time,

to dream and push myself out.

There is a time,

that I wish for a time capsule

or 

a time machine,

or 

a Doraemon to be exist,

so I can runaway to the place that I wish I could stay,

There is a moment,

that no one knew what I feels,

that I behold a responsible,

when I almost grab the chances,

to be what I want the most,

but in the end,

I have to let it go,

because my need is not as important,

as others

There is a stars,

and lights,

and thunders,

and storms,

that I wish could wash away the pain,

heal the wound

and fix the broken parts.

And,

now I really wish,

that I can write a letter to myself years ago,

and turn back time,

but

I laugh,

because,

there will always a sun after the dawn

and clear skies

for me to fly and reach what I can't reach.

Reviews

[Lyn Anderson]

Moving all over the place is the hardest thing for kids. I moved at 12 going on 13 to the worst bullying of my life. I don't envy anyone having to transition to new places through adolescence.

[Ivychelle]

I know how it feels :-( but in the end,here we are.We shaped our self from our past.Good luck!Still,we have time to be what we want to be :-)

[MomzillaNC]

It's such a difficult age, 13. To be compounded by always being the new kid can be devastating. My father was in the Navy and we moved around a lot too -- I went to 14 or 15 different schools. But, my perspective is that wishing to change that past would be a betrayal of who I am now; even as bad as my past was, I'd be afraid that any change would cost me the now I've been blessed with. I hope you too come to such a point in your life.

[Ivychelle]

yes,the feeling of moved around when there is a time I need my friends and dreams,I feel so down :-) but in the end,I am here.I am myself.I still have my own way to go :-) thank you for the reviews!

[MomzillaNC]

You're welcome. And, that reply sounds like a poem!

[Ivychelle]

haha,whoa thank you!

[MomzillaNC]

yvw :D

[MusicManiac]

Thank you for taking up the challenge--I know it was a rather personal topic!

Being a teenager can be really difficult because while our emotions (because they are our own) can feel magnified and overwhelming, they may not be deemed as "important" as others', causing them to simply be disregarded. As we grow older, we learn that our needs and wants are not always the most pressing, but when you're only thirteen, it can be hard to not only know it, but accept it (which you did).

I really love your last stanza--your imagery was truly well executed! While there are things that you wrote you wished you could change, it's true that there is "always a tomorrow" (as the saying goes) so there is always a chance to grasp what you want, as long as you want it enough.

Thank you for sharing this, I truly enjoyed reading it!

[Ivychelle]

Thank you for the review and your time to read my poem.Yes,actually I do have many things to do when I am thirteen but since time pass by,I know I need to be more matured and grown up so one day,I could smile to myself and things that I cannot reach.Thank you for understand what I trying to express on..

[MusicManiac]

You're welcome :)