The Jewel

This is a poem written about a year ago, when I was in a fight with my best friend. Both of us were at fault but I still feel he betrayed me. (I'm transferring a lot of old work from another account)

Under the setting sun, I sit on the bridge we used to sit at
Now I'm the only one
Waiting for the night to see if it will take away the pain
I'll even take violent delights
just to bring this all to an end

Some people might be looking but they can't really see
How much I'm really torn
This is what has become of me
This is what you did to me

Together we created such beautiful simplicity
We were for so many years each other's completion
But now it seems that I have become
Just another one of your meaningless deletions

You were the very ying to my yang
And if you wanted a dramatic exit
You sure went out with a bang
My pieces are left shattered all over
the cold, cold floor and for reason
I'm still waiting
for you to pick up the pieces
but I don't think you will

I keep hoping to get another one of your cheesy get well cards
with a bad attempt at poettry
as you try to make me smile so sweetly
but I know that's about as pointless
as wishing on a stationary star
You're nowhere to be found
But I wish I knew where you are

And as a friend of course
I never loved anyone like I love you
And now I'm too the point where I miss you so
And I don't know what to do

And the way you look at me now
I just want you to know
That it hurts so bad

Playground fun under the sun
from long ago would be better than anything
I can think of now
Where we pretended we were the kings and queens
And to this day, I'd still give you anything
Just to make you smile
It's been too long of a while
When are you going to bring me home again?

And every few nights or so
you show up in my dreams
Why can't I let you go
Like you let go of me
This is difficult enough can't you see?
But like a diamond
You're too hard and too precious
for me to shatter
Your edges are sharp
But you still shine so brightly
And as much as it hurts to know
You hate me so
If I have to, I'll let you go
But please don't make me
And know
I will always love you my Jewel