" BE STRONG " said EVERYONE

Just my day to day thoughts and perspective on things.

Here I am back again to this s**t hole , it keeps dragging me down I hope that I have the willpower and the strength to get  out of these nightmare , I want to crrrrrryyyyyyyyyyyyyyy  so f*****g bad , but I can’t I am not able to do that and this feeling sucks . It feels as if your chest is heavy , and all things seem to slow down your breath , your pulse seems to be the only thing that’s telling you you’re alive. Your breathe seems to have become voluntary as if  you’re pushing and forcing yourself to breathe ….. to live .you need people to fall onto  but you can’t , you want to let yourself  loose but you shouldn’t …..but eventually you do let loose and its just falling with no end ,  as you fall you start getting hit with most painful moments of  life that just tends to tear you piece by piece but you don’t cry we just tend to drag that feeling throughout , the fact that people are not vulnerable to themselves makes us less human than we are , cuz   accepting the pain will always be part of us  ,that makes us human . Life has always been about hardships , pain and sorrow but most importantly being strong in this kinda of situations .. or what we call are bad days . what the f**k is being strong ? when people say that be strong they expect you not to cry, not to complain , basically they don’t want you to express , that’s at least what my parents want . from when did expressing myself become a thing that  makes me weak  . This is JUST S**T  . period.

I tend to feel lonely a lot and I do express this they just tend to offer you sympathy, idk about others but I seriously don’t want  pity . Coming back to the concept of being strong,

                   when you do try to give an explanation of why you are sad or disturbed to be it your parents, friends , your significant other . The reply you will most likely get is be “strong” , blah ….blah it will get over ,blah….blah   everybody goes through this , and the worst is they will say their own story or someone else's of  how much they had suffered ,  ….. dude, it isn’t a competition.

When I do tell about my feelings  they say I shouldn’t be feeling this things , that I am too  sensitive , I am too “emotional”- this I get the whole fkning time . what does that even mean?  I shouldn’t just care about it? …… no , that’s not possible we’re human after all at least ik I am . You have to compromise with your feelings , your emotions  you gotta control them , meaning you have to be  compromising  to yourself  , you shouldn’t be feeling this cuz if you do feel this you will be termed as “weak”. And nobody wants that, so people change there perceptions . 

According to me there is nothing wrong in expressing yourself , or feeling a particular way. If something hurts you then you should accept that , it doesn’t make you weak find ways to handle that , the worst thing you can do is not accepting it . it will just hurt you more . being strong doesn’t  mean the one who doesn’t cry , or one who don’t feel , its just people who know how to handle themselves in such a situation , not controlling it . There is a lot of difference between controlling and handling  yourself , which people often mistake to be one . I am emotional and I am sensitive  doesn’t mean I am weak , I am just more human that most people

                                       -ZEUS

Author's Note

Its just my view on this topic topic and i respect all views pf you guys & expect the same .
(P.S -This is my first time writing so ignore the grammar :3)