The 19 ashes

Today i while i was walking
I passed by ruins
Of a house i dreamed of owning
I swear i could have smelled a perfume
Of my dreams that i keep on stalking
But all i saw was 19 ashes
And the pain inside went on growing
A fool man doesn't know what he smashes
Until he figures that summer is out
And you cant built while snowing
So i walked away leaving my dreams there
Can't guess lack of courage or enough of knowledge