An Understood Misunderstanding

Finding out who my biological father is...after almost 20yrs of believing some other man was

Lives lived while lies lived;
Secrets searched when something's said.
Hate harbored from hell's horror,
Feelings fluttered by false fragmentations.
Coded conversations to conceal connections!
--And all this time, everything's quite the obvious.
Angry attitudes with anxious aspirations;
Deep denial that your daughter's discovered.
Battered-bruised, so broken-blinded.
Mind motivated to move mountains...but...
Pressures pile of past predicaments...
to you that are still hidden.
--And all because what you THINK is unknown-justified-
Is only just an understood misunderstanding.

If protecting me then was the ultimate decision,
They why do so many people know?
Almost 20 years of untrue traits and characteristics.
And now I see my genes in their faces.
Learning over 12 new siblings, who in fact,
And he, yes HIM, my father-
Has carried my secret such a long time.
Carries my birth certificate and pictures,
Like they are the reason he walks this earth.
And to think my "dad" was never even really there!
I wish I knew then what I know now.
That I did have a father who cared.
But it's all just an understood misunderstanding!
And the world will know-when I'm dead and gone.

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A sad tale for sure, being brought up in a lie, even thoue motive may have been pure, it was for them and not for you, i'm sorry that it hurts so much, but try and forgive what may seem unforgivable