A poem to bid you farewell.

This is for me more than anything.

It’s been a little over 10 months since you and I parted.

I’m doing well; I hope you are too.

Is that selfish? To speak of me first?

I apologise, let’s start again:

I hope you are as content in your life as I am mine.

No, I did it again - sorry.

I’ve never been good at goodbyes,

To the extent that I never truly let you go.

My heart no longer belongs to you, yet my mind -

It wonders.

So here is a poem to bid you farewell.

 

I shall start with grace

And thank you for all you gave me.

Thank you for your love;

You were my first and I shall never forget it.

With you, I was able to discover more of me

And for that I am grateful.

 

I didn’t handle it well.

I ignored how I felt to numb the ache you left me with.

I understood, but at the same time I didn’t.

People fall out of love as quickly as they stumble into it -

I just didn’t think it would happen to us.

Naïve, I know.

I loved you, with all of me - I loved you.

 

And you left your scars.

 

I feel them whenever you cross my mind.

Sometimes they ache with a fondness,

Sometimes they sting and leave a venom

Which courses through me until it renders me immobile.

Often the latter coincides with the first.

I don’t particularly mind -

It reminds me that we were real;

Together, we created beauty

And for that I shall always love you.

 

Occasionally I dream of you.

You enter my drowsy state

And haunt me with your deep blue gaze.

And I remember;

The warmth of your touch,

The safety of your embrace,

The taste of your lips,

The heat of our love.

I feel it all over again.

 

I feel the cool sea breeze whirl through my hair

As we sit gazing out across the harbour.

You have your arm around me,

I feel warm -

I feel loved.

For the first time, I understand.

 

When it was good, it was beautiful,

When it was bad, it turned sour.

You stopped feeling and I

Never did.

 

I speak in the past tense of course,

For I am no longer in love with you.

I am happily with another whom

I love dearly -

 

Which is why I must write this.

Because you still linger in the dusty crevices of my mind

And your exit is long overdue.

 

So thank you for our love,

And thank you for my pain

For it fertilised my growth.

 

It’s been a little over 10 months since we parted;

I hope you are well. 

Reviews

[suvaan]

Is this true? Whatever - it is a heartbeat and a heart break. I loved reading it - made me feel lucky.
Paul

[Nora]

It is; thank you. :)