Chapter 37 - New FeelingsA Chapter by emma-Dean- I’d managed to talk Skye out
of looking for Andrea for three days. But when Nate went missing as well, all
hell broke loose in her mind. She became frantic, insane, desperate. She was
constantly on the phone with either Chase or Pricilla, discussing something.
She never told me exactly what, but since the police were no help, they were
planning on taking matters into their own hands. I advised her against it, but
she was delirious and willing to do anything for her friend. In a way, she and
Chase began to reconnect while they plotted. Sometimes she would laugh, and I’d
assume he’d made a joke even at a bleak time like this, and she seemed to be
comfortable while talking. I’d seen Skye talk uncomfortably on the phone before
with her parents. They’d never been close. At those times, she would pick at
her fingernails, walk around and fiddle with things until the call was over.
But with Chase she would lie on her bed and just talk. The only thing that moved on her body were her lips. And this
pissed me off more than I’d ever thought a stupid phone call could. She just
fell back into rhythm with him it was stupid. She was stupid. She was setting
herself up for another devastating fall. I often tried to get her off
the phone, and sometimes it worked. Other times she’d banish me and send me
outside. I never realized how her presence had become such a cherished constant
in my life until it was no longer there. I found myself anticipating any time I
would get to spend any amount of time with her, then be let down when she would
call Chase or Pricilla. The worst part of it was I felt like I’d been a
stand-in for Chase. While he was out of commission because he had hurt her, I
had taken his place as the joking friend. Now Chase was back, and I was slowly
being forced out of the picture. I didn’t think too much of
my feelings until one night when I followed her upstairs after dinner. She was
chattering away on her cell phone with Chase, laughing a lot more than usual,
and then going incredibly serious three seconds later. I planned on spending at
least an hour with Skye, just to catch up on everything we’d missed. I accidentally
stepped on her heel and she tripped, but didn’t fall. She turned around and
sneered jokingly at me. That’s how I knew she knew I was there. When we got to
her room, she pulled open the door, then slammed it shut behind her before I
could follow. I reached for the door handle, thinking it was maybe just a joke,
but then I heard the soft click of
the lock locking. She’d purposefully locked me out. And I knew she’d known I
was there, because of when I stepped on her, so it wasn’t a fluke. I was just a
bothersome guy to her now. When I walked away,
something bubbled up inside me. I tried to deny it, but I couldn’t. It was that
feeling I’d had about Samantha Loosky, my first real girlfriend in grade nine.
I felt something warm in my chest, and it rose until it was in the back of my
throat, begging to get out. But I snapped my mouth shut and walked swiftly to
my room. My roommate wasn’t there, so I let myself fall onto my bed and cry for
a minute. I hated myself. I hated that I was falling for my best friend, and I
hated that she was falling again for her ex. I hated everything. After a few
minutes of crying, I manned up and just got angry. Angry enough that I pulled
out some hair. I didn’t dare punch a wall, even though I wanted to. After that, everything was
hell to me. Seeing her walk by sent shivers down my spine, a simple smile gave
me butterflies, my name on her lips made me blush. And that’s not what I
wanted. I’d only ever wanted to be Skye’s friend, and nothing more. I’ve seen
her at her ugliest stages of the terrible breakup, and people more than friends
don’t want to see that. I’ve been her rock in the current of bad events that
kept her steady, and that’s something a friend should do. I’d never even thought about her like that until Chase
was back in the picture. I came to better terms with
it the day she set off. I think I’ve always felt that way about her, but I’d
never had to compete before. Chase was a jerk to her, someone she always would
hate, but at the same time love. And I understood that. But as her hate fizzled
away, I felt more wary that she’d all of a sudden be gone. And my worst
nightmare came true. “Skye!” I yelled through her
door. “Come out here!” An angry Penelope opened the
door. “She’s not here, Dean. What do you want?” “She said she’d be here.” “But she’s not. I repeat:
what do you want?” Penelope was in one of her infamous grouchy moods. She got
those when it was her time of the month. “I want Skye.” Penelope glared. “I told
you--” “Can you just call her cell?
I forgot mine,” I begged. “Fine. Whatever. If you’ll
leave after.” “Deal,” I agreed. But when Penelope whipped
out her phone, she frowned. Her eyes widened and she gasped. “What?” I prodded. “What?” Penelope shoved the phone in
my face. A text message read: Penelope, don’t worry, I’m okay. I just had to leave for a few
days. I’ll be back soon, before the final exams for sure. Please don’t try and contact me, I’ll
be okay. Love you! I stared at the message for
a long time. It was so brief, she hadn’t said anything about Chase or Andrea or
Nate. And that made me suspicious. So without an explanation, I rushed out of
her room and all the way to mine. I ripped apart the small room searching for
my cell phone, until I found it in a heap of clothes. I opened the one text
message I had, which was sent from Skye. Dean, please don’t be mad. Chase and I went searching for Andrea
and Nate and we’ll be back as soon as we can. Please don’t tell Pricilla
because she’ll kill us. Just stay calm and do NOT contact me. I swear I’ll be
mad if you do. Just remember that I’m never going to forgive myself if I don’t
at least try and save Dre. You understand, right? You’d do this for me, I know
you would. And I’d do it for you. And It cut to a second message
because it was so long. I need you to forgive me, okay? Don’t be mad because then I’ll
feel even worse. Just let me be. I’ll be home soon. I love you. You’d think that the last
part would make my insides leap, and it did for a second, but the I realized
she meant in a best friend sort of love. Still, it was better than Penelope’s
“love you.” But it wasn’t enough, either. She’d never see me the way I saw her,
because it just wasn’t possible. She loved Chase too much. I’d never be good
enough for Skye, and her leaving was just proof. © 2012 emmaAuthor's Note
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Added on February 7, 2012Last Updated on February 7, 2012 AuthoremmaCanadaAbouti'm emma and i watch a lot of TV and movies and read a lot of books and come talk to me about that i would love to talk with you also: i write things every once and a while more..Writing
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