Her Letter

Her letter, a note that he never wanted to open.

Please,

 

       Don’t take this personally. It wasn’t you . . . you were the best thing about me. I just couldn’t handle all the bad anymore. The hateful glares, the biased looks, it was all too much. My life wasn’t worth living anymore. I know, I know. This is a stupid way to say goodbye, but I couldn’t bring myself to say it out loud. I couldn’t bear to tell you in person, and a text or voicemail seemed too detached. So we were left with this. You always said you liked my writing anyways.

 

Okay. Now, how to say this? Ugh, I’m staring at this blank sheet of paper in front of me, wondering if words will ever pop up on it. Probably not. Maybe this letter will never be sent . . . but it will have to be. Because my mind is made up. I’m so sorry, Jay, but every problem in my life is crushing down on me so hard I feel like I can't physically breathe. Do you know what it’s like to be suffocated by thoughts? It’s not fun. I guess the point of me telling you this is that I want you to understand. I do. I want you to know why I did it . . . why I ended my life.

 

You know everything bad that’s ever happened to me, but I guess it didn’t seem bad enough to be life threatening. And on their own, my problems weren’t even worth any tears. But if you add them altogether, they were enough to die for. Literally. I hated that people picked on me just because I didn't wear colourful clothes, and I hated that they automatically assumed that I was insane because I didn't think on the positive side of everything. Maybe I would've if they had given me a chance to try. But most of all, I hated that they judged me so harshly just because I wasn't part of their cliques. Their shallowness repulses me. 

 

Please tell my parents I love them. Please tell my cat, and my dog, and my fish that I loved them, too. Tell Carrie and Grace, especially them. They need to know that I loved them, and only the way best friends can love each other. And, please, for me, if anyone ever says anything bad about me, restrain yourself and don't reply. Because even I didn’t think I was worth the effort.

 

I love you, Jay, and I always will.

 

                                                 -Ally. 

Author's Note

NOTE: THIS IS TOTALLY AND COMPLETELY FAKE. this has been an idea of mine for a long time, to write a suicide note that wasn't mine. i guess the idea was sparked again when i read "Thirteen Reasons Why" (amazing book, by the way. read it if you haven't already). i thinked i touched base on all the important things here. things that seemed important to me, anyways. read, review, and tell me what to add/take out. thank you.

Reviews

[Mary Fioratti]

I think in a suicide note.... we would say what we think it is wrong in us... of course, because if someone is ending a life, it is because they are not happy. But I keep thinking.... if someone one day when thought in suicide note...could sit down and think.. in all good things...why life is worth. I know that people that do that...we can never understand why... must be a powerful and strong will, without any doubt. Or...I would not say "doubt", but something that nobody could stop. I knew some people that did that...and the ones I knew...nobody could tell that they would do something like that. They act so normal, that it is just "all of a sudden"... Very realistic your writing.
Made me think and reflect in the ones that do it...
*Mary*

[KT]

Sad and beautiful and devastating and loving all at the same time! Great job on this one, it was wonderfully written!! :)

[Break The Broken]

wow. i dont even know what else to say, its so said but beautifully wriiten great job :')

[paparapapa]

I like it! Specially this part:

"You always said you liked my writing anyways."

It makes it more painful for the one reading it. Well, for Jay, anyway. And I'm glad that this is totally and completely fake. :)))) Anyway, great write! :)

[Angelic_Dreamer]

it was interesting! Although the note was a suicide not that wasn't yours its still interesting!

[Walk away slow poet]

I must just say WOW!! don't know really what to say. There is so much to say but not sure where to start. I will just leave it as Amazing! I know part of these feelings.

[13ReasonsWhy]

YES!!! AMAZING BOOK!!!! hehe my usernames named after it.....

but amazing amazing amazing!!!! you made this sound so amazing... realistic and so so sad..... loved it great read! once again a job well done!! ;)