Mixing my woes.

just like a weird jumble of all the many different things I'm feeling, the poem changes tone and emotion just as my emotions changed the more I thought and wrote this poem.

I wish I could blow you left, right, and centre with cutting eyes,
I wish I could electrocute you with fantastically painful lies,
Mais malheureusement, I’ll never start to think straight when you’ve got me in chains,
You don’t even know what you’ve done to me, I got poison blood in my veins.

But there He is pissing me off again,
Did you know he makes me a bit insane?
I think you could be so much better,
I’m sure you could make me melt with a little love letter,
I hear the stories they tell about you,
Once they’ve had you they can’t forget,
The way you made them...wet regret.

I want miss you,
But I’m too big to say it,
I’m not going to reveal how I feel,
Although normally I’m so easy to display it,
With you, I tried to keep it to myself,
Coz I know you’re something special.

Argh! Why can’t I forget about you?
I never even got to be part of your little ex ‘crew’,
But really you were always a friend so true...

And I get these little stabs in the chest,
Coz I’ll always know you’d be the best,
I’ll always wonder what could’ve been,
I wish I wish I wish I could be mean...

I don’t really know what else to say,
Other than I don’t want to feel this way,
It’s really hard to keep this inside,
I’m trying to stay away and hide,
I miss the way we used to talk,
I miss that time we went for a walk,
So let’s stroll to the chicken shop for a bite to eat,
And then we can sit in coz our feet are so beat,
Have a nice chat for a little while,
Forget our problems, oh that would make me smile...

I can start off so so strong, but you knock me down,
You have done all along,
I wish you’d miss me now I’m absent,
But I don’t think you miss all that time we spent,
 I’m falling falling I’m falling for you apart,
There’s little I can do when my voice won’t start,
Goddamn it I say to myself TALK TO HIM,
DON’T JUST LIE DOWN IN SILENCE PLEASE!!!
Oh but in my heart it does squeeeeze.......

 

Author's Note

I start off seeming quite strong and angry, and then I show my foolish pride and not wanting to show others I'm weak, and then there's some desperation that drifts off into wishing I could be angrier, followed by nostalgia...The end is just I don't really know? If anyone can figure it out please so say.

Reviews

[Spilled Her Guts in Cur..]

You're a legend. Really well written description of how that awful unwanted longing feels

The crossed out words my dear....*thumbs up*

[Everything Happens For ..]

can you please stop being so awesome at poetry? youre making me look bad!

i seriously cant describe it.
xo