ResentmentA Poem by Ksenia Kazantsevaa slam poem.I can't hear you speak, and I don't want to I hear the cracking on every hidden meaning and pressurized sound I hear the thumping of your chest on every single beat as you spit out the words you want to say to me Your lips are moving your body is loud but your mouth is silent Your voice is silent Your body is talking and your mouth is following But the sound is blind Your body is enough, I don't need to hear your voice to know the meaning Anger, emotion, hurt, sadness, sarcasm, entitlement You you you Your body says it all I can't hear you speak, and I don't want to Your body is aching your anger is crying But all I hear is rain and thunder pounding in my head The thematic control of a calm mind, which you don't seem to have Your language is harsh and I'm not talking about your speech The control in your nerves are lost Your brain is uncensored, your mouth is uncensored, your voice is uncensored but I can't hear you speak and I don't want to. I have the ability to turn off your speech And turn off my ears and continue hearing what I need to hear Your voice is speaking to me from a place of love and your heart telling me it's ok And I'm smiling and my heart is dancing and were in a place of light and forgiveness and silence.. The moment is gone. And it comes with noise And blasts and crashes and thumps and my rain And thunder has stopped in my head My quiet place has gone to dead And I'm in chaos and my rain wants to drown you in itself And cradle you back into that beautiful light. And everything else is transparent. Your mind tricks you into hearing something else And it's doing it to save you And protect you And keep you safe. From the noise, the blasts the crashes of brutality and harshness And ill words. I can hear you speak, but I don't want to. My mind is longing for the time of the rain and thunder to cradle it back to rest And my body is being put to the test, Can I out hold this? Or should i walk away from this mess. Is it ok or should I stand my ground? MY ground. On what I should be hearing and seeing and feeling Because what you're doing is taking me away from your being And pushing me to the brink of my rain and thunder and turning it into an unruly slumber And I want to be with it, at rest. without your lips continuing to spit out your f*****g mess. I can't hear you now, and I don't want to. Because your time has ended to rule me and break my thunder, Don't ever say you were out spoken or turned under I heard you and your body try to take me down And you did it even without a sound. © 2019 Ksenia Kazantseva |
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Added on April 3, 2019 Last Updated on April 4, 2019 AuthorKsenia KazantsevaToronto, CanadaAbouta glimpse into my soul. I do not give consent for my work to be copied. happy and willing to review others' work. let yourself fall into the story. more..Writing
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