Not Anymore

Sometimes our lives are so engulfed by something foreign that it isn't until long after it is gone that we pause and notice we let it cling still.

She stops and looks
for the first time in a long time
at what remains.  

Black on black
on top of more black.  
So much of it now it is boring.

Her skin is pale
and the lighting is unflattering
but she knows it's not the halogens.

The contrast created in the mirror
feels so cold amidst the tile.
The darkness is so lonely now.

She doesn't know why anymore.
She doesn't think she likes it anymore.
It doesn't mean anything anymore.

Instead of a void to get lost in
it is just a void.  There is almost nothing left.
Just emptiness.  

Reviews

[JC]

Has a lot of strong feelings, I won't guess the real meaning...made me think of change, seeing something you held in high regard, and then seeing it as superficial and tiring that makes the person quite sad. That's what I got from it. Can you tell me more?

[inconsistentsea]

I totally agree with your take on this piece. It is meant to have a very defeated feeling. I could tell you more, but I am not going to :)

[JC]

tease