Her suicide note

A sad piece about a young girls suicide note that she leaves for her family and friends to read.

I cannot bare the thought of leaving all of you, 

So I choose not to think of it.

The reality to my very own tragedy,

Is that while dying is scary, living seems

Scarier.

I cannot explain the exact feeling;

All I know,

Is that I feel as if I do not belong,

As if I constantly make mistakes and cannot learn from them,

I feel like

I crumbling on the inside. 

I feel scared, anxious, like everyones always watching,

Always judging. 

I try to be perfect, 

But perfect is not possible. 

I know you all like me fine without me being perfect,

But now think,

How much better would your life be

If I was.

My fear builds huge mountains inside of me,

They stay there for so long, just building,

Until they have to come out.

I am tired of these mountains!

I want to climb them, 

To stomp on them,

To crush them,

This,

This is my way to crush them,

Because now,

Right now,

I am standing on the top.

I will finally release everything,

And fall, 

Perfectly,

Beautifully,

And my mountain will finally fall with me.

Leaving just the essence, 

A memory,

A shadow behind.

This are my last, my final words,

Read them slowly,

Carefully, 

Cherish every word.

I love you all so much,

Sincerely,

Marie

 

Author's Note

This is a very sad piece, I would love to know how it made you feel. This is something very personal to me, so let me know your truest thoughts on it, thank you so much,
Annabelle

Reviews

[Rasha Lama]

Wow. Such a strong piece. The part where you mentioned mountains got to me. Two of my best friends have gone through depression and suicidal thoughts and it hurt realizing that they didn't think they were important at all. It's poems like these and people going through really tough times that make me want to reach out to everyone and help whoever I can. I'm glad this is here to show people how it feels like to the people going through these things. Wow this is such a great poem. Keep writing more xx

[Annabelle]

Thank you so much Rasha! I too had friends who struggled with depression, and attempted suicide. It was a very hard time to get through, and knowing someone who understands how it feels, is so great! I'm so happy that you captured my main goal in this piece (bringing awareness to the illness of depression) and I'm so happy that you think it's important too! Thank you so much for taking the time to read my piece,
XOXO,
Annabelle

[samanthaashley_]

this is a very strong, emotional piece. I like that you emphasized that other people thought she was enough, yet that wasn't enough. I recently wrote a lot about a close friend of mine who committed suicide. unfortunately I have had quite a few friends attempt/commit suicide.. the grief process is something I will never understand. thank you for sharing this with us.

[Annabelle]

Thank you so much! I am so incredibly sorry for your loss! I know how much it hurts, and I would wish that pain on nobody! I'm glad that you enjoyed this, and that you can relate to it. Thank you so much for sharing your personal thoughts and relations to the piece, it means a lot.
Thank you so much for taking the time to read my piece,
XOXO,
Annabelle

[sereenaoutloud]

Depression is something that needs more light brought onto it and the stigma of it cleared up! It can hit anyone young or old and can leave such a devastating trail! You write made me feel sad to know that even with all that family and love it was still less painful for them to exit this world then live init. Your write i feel explained it as clearly as anyone could and was so beautifully written even though as a parent it was gut wrenching to read!! well done

[Annabelle]

I am so happy that you could fully understand my piece, and capture all of the important parts. I'm so glad that you liked it, even though it is so sad. I'm glad that it really hit you hard, as that was I main goal, because I want awareness brought to this topic.
Thank you so much for taking the time to read my piece,
XOXO,
Annabelle

[sereenaoutloud]

you are more than welcome it was a great write! :)

[alf]

Hi Annabelle. You have penetrated the realms of depression and given a highly credible rendition to your readers. That feeling of never being good enough, never achieving, never succeeding, has spilled onto your page with potent realism. Your words seep into the heart, evoking sadness and empathy, truly heart-breaking emotion, alf

[Annabelle]

Hi Alf,
Thank you so much for leaving a review, and for letting me know how the poem made you feel. Getting a complement from a writer as amazing as you, is awesome! Thank you so much for taking the time to read my piece,
XOXO,
Annabelle

[alf]

Well Deserved. I loved it, tragic and mournful as it is, it is a great poem, alf