PAST ----->>> PRESENT

Liking a Best Friend is kind of hard to do

You were my Best Friend

Not too long ago

In 7th grade

The joys of knowing you like this

Was something I didn't know

I saw you as myself

In male form

 

At the time

I was lonely

But the last thing I wanted

Was for someone to hold me

I was tired of guys

Tired of the lies

I was done with trying to identify

The hurting feelings that I felt inside

 

I had no idea that you felt that way

Until Devon told me that day

I freaked out

Even then I wanted to keep you

I really didn't want to lose you

As a friend

Because I felt that you understood

More than anyone could

Why I wasn't okay

 

I was afraid of the confrontation

So I unintentionally avoided you for a few days

I felt horrible

But I don't think it was a mistake

Because I wouldn't have been able to date....

And I didn't want an awkward friendship

And soon, we'd probably end it.

Because we both wouldn't be able to stand it

 

Besides, this gave me time

To think about you

To think about what I wanted to do

Thanks to Devon,

I had time to warm up

He actually woke me up

To reality

To the possibility

Of you and me

 

I went on to 8th

And although you were away

From me

We sent Emails back and forth

Frequently

You were back to being my Best Friend

The one who's understanding would never end

I was glad to have you again.

 

In the beginning of that year,

I met another guy

His weirdness

and strangeness

Caught my eye

And though at first,

I felt I liked him more

My feelings for you never stepped away from my door

 

But all of this is thanks to you

At the skating rink

For the very first time

You confused me

And convinced me to change my mind

I had to rethink what I wanted

Cause you see

I wasn't sure

That what I wanted

Was what I wanted anymore

 

When you grabbed my hand on the floor

You made me wobble

You made my way of thinking unsure.

 

But still I was ignorant

I refused to listen

To the obvious message

The one that said

You like him!

But I didn't listen

You are a friend

I thought back then

And friends should stay friends....

Til the very end

 

I decided to go after Zack

Who I didn't know much about as a matter of fact

And when I look back

I realize that he never liked me like that

We were friends

And that's how it stands

He just happened to take me to the dance

I tasted What If's all night long that night

I was happy

The mood was right

But that feeling I felt for you I tried to fight

That night

I locked it up tight

Out of mind

Out of sight

 

But nothing happened....after that

I went on summer break

And forgot about Zack

 

On the day of open house

I saw you

I waved

Cause in truth

I had really missed you

I hadn't had anyone else to discuss writing issues

We talked about classes

As we walked down the hallway

For some reason

I was holding my breath

We were standing really close

And I started walking really slow

I couldn't look up at you

I didn't know what to do

This weird feeling washed over me

And for a moment, I was happy

 

But when I saw Zack

Some of those feelings came back

I decided to let him go

It was you I wanted to get to know

So now my story's caught up to today

This entire thing seems to be the work of fate

 

We're friends but we're not

When Devon told me in 7th grade

You stopped being my friend

Where that stopped

Something else began

 

I'm so happy that we met

And it seems to me

That just maybe

I've always liked you

Maybe just maybe

I didn't know it yet

 

: )