Dear Guy That's Starting To Mean Everything To Me

Feeling unsure about your feelings, not wanting them to be false, but wanting to be real, really real...

Dear Malik,

I've gotta get this stuff off my chest

You should never read this

Trust me, I'm only thinking of what's best.

 

Dear Malik

I just have to say that I'm sorry...

I'm very very moody...

It's just that these things

I think

Are weighing on my mind

I think these heavy things all the time

 

Dear Malik

Is it alright to say that you're oblivious?

Although it's not obvious...

I want you touching me all the time

Don't think

Just do

I'm giving you the permission to

I feel like I'm going crazy over you...

 

Dear Malik

I'm such an idiot

I can't seem to make my mouth speak any of this

Didn't mean to seem like I was pissed

It's just that I'm fustrated

I'm not too patient

And I'm tired of waitin'

 

Dear Malik

I'm insecure

And often I'm confused and unsure

About your feelings for me

Exactly how deep

Can your feelings be?

 

Dear Malik

I'm sick of being disappointed

By everyone I love

Even though they try to make it up

I always remember and it sucks

I have a hard time with Trust

I'm always on the look out

For the next person

Who might end up hurting me

I am suspicious with new people

Especially the ones that make me feel

Like they're the real deal

I watch them with doubt.

 

 

Dear Malik

I think I'm falling for you

But I'm afraid to let myself fall

Afraid that I might ruin it all

Afraid that you'll only see

The absolute worst in me

That you'll think we could never be

Together happily

 

Dear Malik

Some words don't mean a thing

One thing that will always prove true

Is body language

The way that you truly think connects with the things you do

 

Dear Malik

We may be young

But my heart you've won

My brain is just trying to escape

The holes in my hearts logic

Never fail to gape

I could always be angry

But I could never hate

You

 

Dear Malik

I can't think of anything else to do

I'm starting to crave attention from you

When I'm trapped in family problems

Your hugs pull me through

There's some kind of strength

That transfers from you to me

I forget my problem for a while

Those hugs are magical

That, I can see

When you hug me

I forget my reason for being angry.

 

Dear Malik

I'm afraid to scare you away

I think about that look in your eyes when you look at me

And each day

I wonder

If it's the last look I'll ever see

I can't process my feelings

I can't name them at all

What is the name of this feeling?

Lust?

Need??

Love???

Maybe all????

 

Dear Malik

There are somethings

You can't formulate into mere words

The multiple meanings of this poem

Only begins to chip away at the surface

 

 

I'm only writing this for me

I don't think you come on here anymore

So that's why my feelings I poured

Onto this website

Way before midnight

Judging from the past few weeks

No information have you leaked

I'm pretty sure

I don't think you come on here anymore....