I've Got D.I.B.P.P.M.A

(Doubts. Instilled. By. People. Past. My. Age.)

Doubt

Doubted

Doubting

 

People keep shoving their ideas and perspectives down my throat

They point out the flaws in my plans and make me loose hope

I can see the flaws in my own plans

And I realize what a mess I've got on my hands

I could never make anyone understand

 

I'm just a teenage girl

I've been taught indirectly that fairytales are real

And that true love always come to those who want it

Well what if I'm not sure I deserve it

What then?

What happens when someone gives so much

That you can't possibly repay them?

 

I don't know what I want

That's the truth of the matter

If I want you

I don't want to want someone else too...

I don't want to settle

I don't want to believe all the experienced adults

 

Don't laugh at me!

This is my life

This is real

This is true

This isn't silly!

 

I don't want anyone telling me that I'm too young

And inexperienced

And silly

To know what love is....

I don't want to be told that all my actions in this particular field

Are small,

Tiny

And borderline insignifigant....

 

If I get too serious..

It's on me

It's my job

Not yours

To search for myself

And tell my heart what love is....

 

 

Reviews

[Cee. Es.]

i can really relate to this poem and its so true, people can go on telling you whats right, whats wrong, but in the end you've got to tell yourself what to do. thank you for the read.