Hopefully You'll Stay Right There When Things Go Bad

Someone being there when you need them

This is the problem with me and Love

We don't get along very well...

I wish I could do something about it

But I can't

And it sucks...

 

It's so fustrating

Not being able to let you know

How I feel...

It's like torturing someone,

Before finally coming in for the kill...

It's like climbing up a mountian,

Then realizing that you have 5 more hills...

 

Sometimes I don't think that I can deal with this...

The slow pace...

Your smiling face

My sanity spliting

Like the pieces of a broken vase

 

Ughhh!!!

Sometimes I want to shake you!

Other times I want to stick to you like glue

But most times

I feel like bursting into tears,

And breaking down in front of you

Just to see what you'd do....

Just to see

If you could really

Handle me

 

Our friends,

Who are your Best Friends

The ones you confide in

They tell me things...

Things that you said....

 

Do you really think you're in love with me?

Do you really think I'm smart and pretty?

 

They tell me these things

And I feel like I like you even more...

 

But are these really things you said?

How can I trust that these things aren't buttered up

And served with bread?

 

You see,

My idea was to watch you

Ever so closely

But as I look

I don't understand,

And I don't see...

Maybe it's just me...

I can't tell

 

Or I can

But the feelings I see

aren't as grand

As mine are coming to be

 

I'm scared...

 

I don't want to get myself into another

Relationship like that

Where I'm constantly giving and giving

Only to recieve nothing back....

But hurt and self pity...

 

I can't do that again

I will not send

My heart into harms way

Pain and embarrasement

Is what I'll be repaid

A fool

And a nobody

Is what I'll be made

 

I want to trust you

But I..I...I just can't

I'm afraid of giving up too much....

i want to cry!!!

This is just so fustrating

And I feel so stupid

and weak

For complaining

 

I shouldn't care...

We're 9th graders...

Our life hasn't even begun yet...

It's not like we'll grow up

And I'll get married

To you the guy who's always wanted to be a vet...

 

I just want you to think the best of me

THat's all

I just want you to see me at my worst

So my hopes won't fall

And that when we finally do start dating

I can trust that you won't bail...

That you won't leave me

That you'll understand me

That you won't shy away cause I'm getting emotional

I'm not asking for a fairy tale

I'm asking you to be there

Like I'll be there for you....