♥EMOTIONAL ♥

~~Feeling Emotional over a guy~~

I'm emotional

Over you

You're supposed to be my friend

Until the end of the year...

But I slowly find myself falling for you...

What can I do?

 

You make me happy

Whenever you're around

I love the sound

Of your voice

In my ear

and when you're not with me,

I wish you were here....

 

I can't completely

Be with you

Until after this year...

So the only way,

I soothe my growing hurt

Is by talking to you

And hanging around you

And laughing with you...

I can't let you know....

I want to surprise you

I want to let my feelings grow...

To match yours

I want them to be in tune

With each other

I want them to brighten

Like the waxing moon

 

I fantasized so much

About today

About how you were going to meet my family

And how they'd come to love having you around

This morning,

My feelings were happiness bound

 

When I called,

And you said you probably wouldn't be able to come...

My heart sunk little by little...

Like the setting sun.

 

Honestly,

I didn't want to go anymore...

I wanted to go into my room

And lock my door...

I only get to see you at school

For 2 class periods a day,

And usually,

You sit so far away...

 

If you ask me,

How it all went,

I'm going to lie to you

And tell you happily

That it was time well spent....

 

I didn't really have fun...

All I could do was sadly think of you

And wish you had come with me...

Like it was supposed to be...

 

I just can't wait,

Until the day,

Where I can be alone with you

And tell you what I really think...

The day will come where you won't be shy...

I think you'll be the perfect guy

For me...

On that day...

 

I watch you

Time after time

Put you arms over their shoulders

or lean on them...

Lean on me,

Use me as your crutch...

I won't mind

 

I'm sorry to say,

A one armed hug

Isn't enough...

But I'm trying to stay strong

I'm trying to be tough..

 

But every now and again

Especially on days like today

My emotions tend to free themselves

In the teary way...

I feel weak,

And unbalanced

For crying over you..

But there are 11 months

Before I can test out anything

What can I do?

 

The answer is simple...

 

I can't do anything

 

Because I'm afraid that doing something

(even nothing at all)

 

Might hurt you....