Me...The Attention Junkie....

.......My insecurites about myself.....

I'm insecure,

About my looks...

I'm insecure about my face...

I'm insecure about my smile....

I'm not sure how to pass these days

I feel beautiful,

but yet,

I do not...

I hate it when my weaknesses

are out in the open,

For everyone to spot...

 

Don't want to be judged,

By my own flesh and blood

Don't want to be critisized

By friends

Who will cover their mouths

With their hands

And utter the words,

Oh My Gosh...

Because they didn't know this

Huge truth about me...

 

I admitt it..

Sometimes..

I..

Feel...

Like an attention junkie...

Sometimes

I want everyone's eyes on me...

I love the compliments,

That come pouring in...

They make me feel beautiful

In my lovely colored skin...

 

Been livin in the shadows

For Lord knows how long..

But now it's come to this...

Someone,

Tell me if there's anything wrong...

With me,

for feeling this way...

For wanting everyone to look at me

And say,

She's great,

She's wonderful,

I want to be just like her...

 

Don't want anyone

Looking down on me...

Not anymore...

There used to be a time,
When I'd take that...

But I won't anymore...

Not since he,

Came knocking at my door...

Causing me to explore,

The wonders of Confidence...

I won't go back

To how it was before...

 

When he left.

I refused to break down

Had to find something else to hold me together now....

That's where acting,

And singing,

And bragging

Came through....

They made me productive,

So that I didn't have to cry over you

This,

Whoever may read,

Is the sad truth...

Of all my insecurties...

 

 

 

Reviews

[kawatters]

Beautiful. Deep, emotional and from the heart. You are not wrong to feel this way- everyone wishes they were the centre of attention sometimes. Human beings are inherently selfish- our world revolves around us and so there is a desire for everyone one else's to ,too.