Me, This Guy, and His Girlfriend

"liking someone when you know you shouldn't...and imagining how you'd be hurt in the near future..."

I need to stop thinking about you

Right here and now..

My sister keeps trying to convinvce me

That you like me

But I just don't see how

 

If you liked me at all

Wouldn't you make an effort

To at least say something

When I call?

You might possibly be shy...

But I don't like considering that

I have a phobia of getting my hopes up

Too high...

 

*sigh*

This school year is gonna be hecka hard

My heart's gonna be filled

With extra sharp glass shards

When I watch you

Date every girl

But me...

 

This is something

I don't wanna see

Although I know

It's gonna happen inevitably

Fate is constantly playing

Heartless

Relentless

Tricks on me...

 

I'm going to be walking down the white tiled floor

Of *blank* High

Minding my own business

Not even thinking of you

Quietly humming, "Almost there"

From that new Disney movie

 

I'm going to turn the corner

And there I'll see you

Kissing a long-haired blonde

Shock will smother me

And my heart will constrict in pain

But I'll do what I always do

Cause all my crushes

End the same...

 

I'll turn my head

Pretend I didn't notice

The two of you

And quickly,

Ever-so swiftly

Walk away

 

I should have known the day would arrive

When I

Wouldn't be the only one to see

How kind

And wonderful

A guy you are

 

And I'll hold my head up high

As my feet carry me away

In one final attempt

To show my Happy-go-Lucky self

 

But when I turn the corner....

I'll sigh

And against all better judgement

I'll secretly wish

That I was in her place

Filling her space

Have your grinning face

FLoaTinG ARouND Me..

Always...

Or if only for

Today...